If I was god

Being a born collector I'm always happy when adding to any project, including women as well. Now my road signs have nearly all been found according to the map my next photographic project will both keep me adding new ones and get me as far away from home as I can possibly manage. This new year I've been taking photos to add to the Geograph map of Britain, adding a red square for each added. That is compulsive and done about six fairly local trips already where I found gaps on the map. Once the clocks go forward I've got a few further ones planned and will see how it goes. Otherwise it's business as usual, pursuing global warming education of the masses (deprogramming) and now working with some of the top guys in the country who have come to the same conclusion and met online. My intuition is such, much as the great Lord Monckton who had an hour's programme on TV last night despite them trying to make him look like an amateur, we have the intuition and no science to back it up. The scientists on the other side know half the science (no one knows much more around the climate as it's chaotic and barely measured thoroughly as it would be almost impossible to do more than random sampling), and have absolutely no intuition as my latest small part of science tells me one simple thing:

CO2 was 280ppm before industry and is now 390. The paper expectation to double to 560 is 1C. The IPCC maximum (way on the edge of probability) is 6C, one used by nutters worldwide as if inevitable. However, CO2 has almost doubled already, so adding about 40% has corresponded with a 0.7C rise. That was in a rising period (there's always one or the other, the ice age cycle guarantees them naturally), so double that and a bit and you get 1.5C, the 0.5 being quite close to the expected rise otherwise. If you extrapolate a century long trend the same distance ahead then unless some unknown (as this has never happened before) mechanism no one can think of kicks in between 390 and 560 then it will indeed become a 1C rise or so, which is not a problem for anyone as a normal and safe change known from history. So why don't they use this as a benchmark as we're already half way there?

Theme 2 is someone on Facebook just asked to name one good thing about God, and I said sycnhronicity and love, another said we only have bad things happen as we don't realise our own power to change it. Creation has always been said to go in hand with God, so one way or another it is happening already, but if I realised who I was (as in Yogananda's book) I'd fix so many things it would be heaven on earth for me and presumably anyone else who wanted it. Although it would also involve knowing the universal law of how much you should do for others. So sticking to my own world I'd probably do the same as anyone else. I already realised it is not cheating to fix the world as it feels just as bad when it's bad whether you do it or someone else, so the relief of ending it is just as good whether by another's hand or your own. How we feel is the bottom line, and removing causes of spoiling that is the first priority. I'd remove my own health problems, at least the worst I know of, and that would be the main barrier removed, and then start fixing outside.

It's a 50-50 split, if you're improved then what happens outside isn't so important. I've already arranged many things somehow so the biggest demands have already been removed from my life, and would then introduce a few more friends back here, and one rule is you can't choose specific people as they have free will, so anyone who fits the requirements will do. Then I'd move some blockages in as many areas as I can. Watching the slow or even backward pace of progress on issues which are dangerous or unnecessary regardless of the evidence is like watching people heading for a car crash and being unable to stop them. As the laws are already in place regardless of lack of evidence, we need quick data to arise to finally show they cheated so much whatever they can show to be true (as the devil's work, the hiding a lie in the truth so people won't see it) will be worthless as they lied to fill the huge gaps. Then people would suddenly realise the corruption at every level and may cause revolutions which are happening in the Arab world as a domino effect (ie one engineered by Islamists to take over as many countries as possible, but still happening). But realising our leaders are corrupt will be all that is needed to stop them in many countries. No one likes to look an idiot, and quite happy to name names if required, government lackeys like David Attenborough and Lord Winston who have quite a bit of clout will metaphorically tear the crap out of the politicians who made them look like morons as their pride will be wrecked.

That dealt with I'd then blow apart the corruption of secrecy, and any information on aliens and free energy would be released for the benefit of all. We've had hints for decades and still no further along than the day it started. I have no idea about aliens but certain about free energy as I know people who have found it themselves. The shots and death threats etc inevitably followed as did removal of funding and the usual ostracising by companies worldwide. As we have a real energy crisis now with record prices and taxes it can't take any longer to release this information to catch it before we are all rationed by income. I would then open up the apology energy. I have recently read everyone who hurts someone removes their bad karma and takes it on themselves, but it still hurts when they do that. I actually got what passed for one today so may have started already, but that list is already beginning to fill a page and I knew what I'd done wrong at about three years old having been taught properly. Instead of fucking up and having to apologise I was simply polite to people, until global warming which stole so much of my own money the diplomacy vanished. That's returning now as only fuels divide a rule but cost me a 45 year friendship already.

Then I'd speed up my general career. I've reached the first level of the media, ie being used, but the second is being known. It's a lot harder to get there at all so have broken through, but have to get employed by the right people who are seen by nearly everyone to move up properly. At my age it's too late to hang about any more. Of course once you see the outside improve you react accordingly and feel better as a result in itself. Finally (for now) I'd open the psychic channels I know I have at will and continually, as there is a lot more to see and know than we can most of the time. I'm not freaked out by it and if there are spirits standing around me I'd rather see them and communicate, they are just as natural as insects or other people in the room and they don't freak us out besides the spiders. I'd rather have a house full of spirits than one of them thank you. And to tie it up, the god inspired information comes to the greatest geniuses, who say they are not creating the music and art themselves but it comes through them. For me a lot of data comes through me rather than anything physical, but would like that to fully open as well as having read about it am now no longer likely to abuse any power offered. Ultimately we are all one so hurt another and you are hurting yourself as well.

Looking for God

Today I will actively look for God in my life. The guidance is presumably the first clue as nothing else could be responsible for arranging all of life to fit for one person. Yesterday I was typing and they said the same phrases I was writing twice within a minute. That happens to quite a few people I know as well. I appear to be being made to face my final fears- death, destruction, all that shit. One by one situations I believed (as there was not enough information to know otherwise) may be extremely dangerous are being forced on me to show me they are not without the need for any expert advice. I don't think there are many left and maybe with them out of the way there won't be much left to bother me or get in the way of my progress.

Also of course by writing here on a subject offers the chance of inspiration to work out additional examples- today wasn't special on the surface- but for example once I'd repaired my cassette copier to send a tape to Australia I recorded it and being on an old tape wasn't full volume, and didn't want to use 5 minutes on a new C90 and a new C60 turned up at the front of a rack and took the copy perfectly. There was only a few minutes to wait in the post office, and got the rest of my shopping done at the same time. I've finished searching my old negatives and as well as the most prized photo of the local road sign I wanted, albeit barely legible in the distance, I've found many photos I'd never seen before as the chemists never printed them. I have run out of ideas for tomorrow and beyond, although the same chores need doing. Last week I wrote to three more people from Friends Reunited and can only eliminate them as a-holes as none replied. I started my phone calls tonight but no one was in but will keep trying.

I'd create if I was god (which is basically how it works anyway, we gradually take over consciously so the crap we got before is under control and organised the way we'd prefer it) a way I could still avoid all the stress I can no longer cope with but a solid social and family life, with no need to worry about the people I did have expecting me to go to places I couldn't. A few are fairly well trained now but very thin on the ground. I agree I shouldn't get any prizes without earning them, but the years of study and experience I have put in took me till 46 to get on TV and 50 to be published. I think the previous effort would now be used to justify any career improvements, I hardly need to go to college again or do more fieldwork. I was asked to do a lecture but 120 miles away, not good for an agoraphobic really. I would do so in London as long as it was this side of it, but can't wreck my health for anything. I would change a few things externally as well- it's a bloody mess and as Marx and others have observed, extremism can't last forever as the momentum runs out and the opposition water it down. Global warming's dark side is now turning slowly to face the earth and one by one every aspect I've said was the case is becoming proved. Of course it had to as it was based on no more than a plan to dominate the world by the UN and cheating the data to do so. The graphs are so crude anyone in primary school would question how they all change when adjusted from flat to sloping, and questions are now being asked at higher levels but the taxes keep coming. I'd speed things up a bit as the people may wake up suddenly when the first wave notice they've been had all along. Once they turn their backs their friends will feel they have no reason to hang on and follow until only the extreme nutters are left and be ignored as they always should have been. Today the nutters are in charge and listened to by the media and governments worldwide, what was delusional is now mainstream. I can't be bothered to put up with that much longer, I don't like being in a world where more people are insane than not and it's a struggle to find those who haven't been infected.

I'd also free the energy in the places I'm working on, apart from being sent photos of the odd road sign I can go and get and being asked for an article most other things have needed far more work to get returns than they should have. In fact the majority of work appears to have created nothing at all. I've never averaged any more clients a week since my practice began, I've spent a fortune for me trying to spread the word but still only get work from the official directory. I do pay the bills anyway but wonder why I can't get a few more like the others appear to who do no more advertising than I do. And my meditation barely seems to do a thing most of the time, you'd have thought after 13 years and combining new methods at other times the energy built up would push things along a bit but no. And official requests and decisions would go more easily. I'm not unreasonable and even offer to pay myself for some projects which would harm no one and benefit many. Besides allowing me to spend two hours painting an old road sign I've had little or no help from the others. And my sales of art and photography have been diabolical, the books are expensive so understandable, but the paintings are not and gathered dust until finally returned to me. And the people I dig up from the past could yield a few who were actually both local and wanted to see me again. I haven't thought if any elsewhere would have if they were still local but I'm only asking for one or two. I've only seen two altogether from my past, one now up north and the other abroad. I can't believe the fact they all chose to put their details up that avoiding any contact with all but their favourites is the same for everyone.

I think my clairvoyance is improving in certain areas, I can pick up words and the like for quizzes pretty clearly now, which has been from constant practice. If that can now be expanded to cover other areas it could guide me into more fertile areas than I'm searching currently. I am clearly being communicated with somehow as I can't go and look for some of these items as the actual words and answers aren't even revealed before the quizzes end. That means someone has to be able to pick them up before they are known (by going outside the timeline) and communicating them to me. If I can pick up anything from outside my own field then I should be able to open that channel a lot more. There is a lot of potential but as yet barely consciously used. I am aiming for more now in every way, the energy has to loosen for me.

Multiple dimensional control

It's a nice free week again, sod all in the way of constructive ideas but have got some chores done as little in the way of distractions. I have realised how one thing that would make me very happy is to have even one person who's treated me like shit in the past to realise the error of their ways and apologise. I still feel guilty for all the times I've done it to people and wonder if many who've done it for me still think they were right. I know if I've deserved anything and these were just nasty. I also fantasise about what I'd like to happen besides that when it's quiet, and includes discovering old friends, more rare road signs, getting replies from long dead messages, and getting the real data on global warming out of the shadows. Some may happen sooner or later and others are daydreams. We all have them though and do show how little say we have in what happens, whatever we think we can do about it.

Nothing in the way of plans besides some work next week, and the new three step version of my original active meditation. This moves you beyond the immediate awareness and then tries to dissolve any blockages to what lies behind it. It gets you deeper to start with and then a way to clear the path altogether (if it works). As a natural teacher even though I'm just doing this for me if I found it worked I'd probably be the first to want to tell everyone. The main reason is I've been listening to the teaching for 12 years and most complicate it so much they dig people in even deeper a lot of the time. And anything that works for me will work I am certain.

Another interesting phenomenon I've come across and tested is seeing something coming just before you get it. Technically if you play golf with a blindfold you'll just keep hitting the ground and never know where the hole is, let alone hit the ball in it. But when I've taken a quiz and nearly won was often when I was just about to win the next one. Heads and tails, same odds each throw but it happened. And then when you want to find something and just guess somewhere you've just thought of is the likely route. There is some logic there but only a little. I was checking names from school again and thought I must get close to one on my list on this search and soon after one turned up. Having searched for 9 years very few new ones pop up now, and there they were right after I guessed I was on the right track. And maybe the same applies to enlightenment. You suddenly realise you're on the right track just before you find it. And women and anything else for that matter, you often seem to be able to tell just before it happens like when I went to my friend's house a couple of time when his sister had friends over. Having a friend's sister's friends over wasn't an automatic passport to crumpet for me but at least one of these occasions sensed it was going to happen and it did.

I am ready for something decent to happen now. I may or may not deserve it or have put the effort in but either way I am. And miracles know no size or quantity, once the door is open all is as easy as one small one. I know what I'd like and possibly who. Anyone who's read The Secret knows it's not cheating and having had no control previously does not feel any worse for getting it with the control as if cheating. It's just working for something constructively if it's true. I've used it twice so far for some pretty big things but will wait till the list is a lot longer before I connect the cause and effect.

But if I could see anything good coming I'd get just one woman from the past who was ready and able for me, at least one apology from some total baskets who need a week on basket camp to learn their lessons, see a few heads roll where people have overstepped their authority, have a major name take up the cause to kill the lies of global warming, get me on terrestrial TV or a daily paper (got close so far but need to cross that line), get enough money to move where I used to live, catch up with some old friends I've lost track of, get one home from abroad, get a relative to pay back the money he stole from us, get the second last series of Grange Hill (the one that wasn't broadcast on TV) shown so I can see it at last, find the music from children's TV in the early 60s, find out what happened to the old roundabout sign I missed in Surrey, get another old red triangle sign, get the truth on ufos from whoever already knows it, find anything I'd lost in the house, and anything else I haven't thought of.

Of course we all have similar lists, but I believe there's no reason life can't actually be like this. I've also read about dimensional shifts and one example was losing something in plain view and then turning up later. This happens to me and people I know quite often, and the roundabout sign was an area I passed from time to time and only noticed once. Someone took a photo there a couple of days later and it wasn't there. The council had no record of removing it despite the location and date I saw it go. Unlike others it wasn't in a seedy back street but on a major dual carriageway thousands of people would pass daily. That's a mystery. I thought I'd got the place wrong but after many checks I couldn't have done. And I'd wake up tomorrow to find some people had gone, some people had arrived and many things were different. And if there are multiple universes that explains how my own can change so much without bothering anyone elses.