The miracles have started

I've learnt that whatever milestone you pass it only affects your life in relation to that milestone. Everything else of course is still the same, so whatever prize (Nobel or otherwise) you gain life hasn't changed in any other way besides any possible benefits the prize comes with like fame, money or women. My road sign search is complete, it's a great relief as I missed the one off my own road and finally caught up but nothing else is different.
I'll deal with it as it is now, you can't do any more, it's still better than it was but all the other shit is still there. Nothing major, just the second level hard work but just about manageable stuff just below the dentist or having to go to a wedding.

So I've got the temporarily clear space ahead, the irritations are further and sure they'll take care of themselves. It's been quite a productive week (for me anyway)- more (in fact virtually the last) of the items removed and sold or given away from grandma's place, a bit of work and almost went on a date. I say almost as it was a date but not in the relationship area. Closest I get nowadays. But although it's more of a physical attraction to me (not much use when that's not on offer is it?) I did find there were certain conditions attached to its return for me, but too high I think for me. The price to pay for everything is restricted, and I think this was beyond reasonable in this case. If it's not the right person you can't offer so much as it'll only end in tears. It was nice to know she is apparently interested though but basically what she wants for any actual progress is more than I can offer. As far as I know.

Meanwhile I've been dropping every issue I have with the world as I come across it, it's not my problem. My life is barely affected by 99% of the things that bothered me, once I saw one I realised I didn't need to care about any of them. Global warming is about seeing how bloody thick many people are and how criminal a minority are who drive it. But it's not my problem. Although it's sadly confirmed people are worse than I thought (OK, an average IQ of 100 is pretty low as it means half the world are below it) it's not my problem. The money they're stealing from me I can afford, I just prefer not to pay more than double for my power than it should cost. But it doesn't spoil my life really. And there have always been pathetic jealous individuals who want to take away everything from other people they don't have, and call it socialism or variations of. As that's breaking one of the ten commandments I know which of us is going to hell anyway.

I feel exactly the same though, bad when it's going bad, OK when it isn't but can be bad when it isn't as well as the past has still affected me. But nearly everyone else is the same so not unusual, just not what I'm aiming for. I know a lot more, have seen how things link up and then start thinking to create situations, as described throughout history. And as underneath inner and outer are the same outer changes are no different from inner ones. They should reflect my own progress and that's in the Bhagvad Geeta. No science but a miracle. And if you have one miracle then they exist, and they keep happening now over and over again. So although I feel the same and react the same I see the world as different as it is. And unlike experience of god these can be seen by anyone around me. Despite being no others know for 80 miles I had two dreams with the road sign I needed, all the others had delivered so expected this to, and did within a short time after looking for well over 2 years, 1 1/2 with the benefit of Streetview. This should work elsewhere now I've seen it complete my first area.

So limbo isn't such a bad place but tomorrow has a short booking in the middle (meaning I don't have to try and find somewhere to wander around with the camera instead) and nothing else known besides a new booking on Tuesday. I'm still Streetviewing, more signs are always good but at least not concerned now as I've got my collection filled. But things should have started heading the same way now as you can't deliver in one area and not in every other?

Progress is made

Rather than draw my own conclusions I'll present a summary of my experience and see what you think. My photo collection of old road signs has been going 2 1/2 years now, and around this year as any enthusiast would I've been dreaming about them. But then soon after I had one the same type would turn up, and it became from simple wish fulfilment to prediction. Then the already reported incident of seeing an exact sign (complete with missing end) which was then seen intact in a book of old photos and then in reality exactly as I saw it, but in a different location. So when I had two dreams within a few days just with the elusive graphic red triangle sign, only known 80 miles away, I expected it to deliver as till then they all had since the first one did. I didn't have to wait long, a couple of weeks or so, before one turned up 15-20 miles away, exactly the same as the three scattered around in the literal middle of nowhere and not worth even my effort as a collector.

I now believe I have crossed whatever barrier of connection with everything else, as synchronicities have happened in waking life for some time as well, including the story of finding three signs on the way to just one. I'm no different though- life's ups and downs still take me with them and don't feel anything has changed, but I know the world has something about it that isn't random and it can see and think and direct. But I was expecting the final dreams to deliver and despite the extreme rarity of the signs compared to the others I'd been shown it still performed exactly as hoped. I'm always being accused of not working hard enough for my progress, but if that means deliberately suffering when it's probably not required to do so then that's just commonsense. I already drove to Brighton at 7am to start the first stage of my meditation course after various long assessments in London, that was way beyond my preference but the goal was more important. And when I finished the course I did my hour a day or more for over 2 years, only tailing off when the results were too rare and when they did happen only lasted a few minutes. I gave it a fair run and didn't stop, just ran out of motivation.

But the point is there's no requirement to suffer to grow. As I say to my students it's not the hours you put in but the quality. With practice you're not studying so is different, but there it's more about finding a decent method and sticking with it, but no connection to anything having to be demanding to work. As my teacher says, it's simple to do but hard to keep doing. So the quality element there is not taking on something beyond you to overcome but not slipping out of practice. And many can be enjoyable as well, quite the opposite. So having narrowed down the two methods for me, the passive meditation hours and the active awareness you can do any time I just get on with it. Plus listening to as many talks online as I can (I did plenty in reality as well so just recharging the batteries with it) and can only keep going regardless and see what happens. For me it's not been feeling I'm connected with everything (not enlightenment but the stage before it) but knowing it from events. That's the first stage before all the others, so my progress is being indicated from outside rather than inside. Of course ultimately there should be no difference but so far I'm still me and suffering as before.

Presumably I must have done something to get to this level regardless. And why anyone should think you have to suffer as a means to avoid suffering seems a bit contrary to the intention. I think the outside/inside world is different now, and it's clearly always been the same for me and everyone, but doesn't come into action presumably until we can get what's happening and appreciate it. I'm sure some people would be freaked out and even imagine they were losing it when they were so tuned in they could dream the future and be shown things they'd never seen before. I've been doing clairvoyance for nearly 20 years so expect to get it right myself, and would be disappointed if I didn't. Like free energy devices we don't need to know how they work or intuition to use them. The same as our body, that gets on and takes care of itself, doctors know how most of it works but the users of anything don't need to know how to build them or how they work.

I only hope now whatever's guiding things both continues and extends to every other area in my life, it certainly needs it. And then I have some say in each area. But I think the first step has been taken.

Spiritual development update

If everything really does make sense then maybe I have cracked it. If everything is connected then it isn't a theory it is all one, but explains what I see happening already. If we're connected of course hearing something I'm reading or saying at the same time would happen as it's all me so my thoughts and their thoughts are linked up. And ultimately there is no other as it's really just one, and when I'm ready for this revelation then it will come. And the way it's put together even those who have realised this can still teach others even though they realise there are no others, but you deal with that when you get there.

I reckon some of the things that wind me up are sent to make me find ways to stop them doing so, some are dealt with and others aren't, but any I think is a miracle after growing the seeds for 50 years. I react to everything and way more than other people within my areas of sensitivity. That's genetic and handling anxiety at levels where the whole body can reach the point of failure is a tall order for anyone. Unfortunately when you've had a sample of the worst really happening it no longer seems irrational to react as if more is on its way. We can be blamed when we know we are wrong and carry on but not for automatic reactions as we didn't create them. There's no choice how you feel or think, only what you do with the thoughts, ie reject or accept them.

So far I've done pretty well and it's only Tuesday- on Sunday I was thinking although Streetview's opened up loads more old signs because the direction ones were nearly all by junctions I doubted I'd find any more, and noticed I had just one black (rural) panel while the others were all blue. At bedtime I decided to do my weekly or so check and another direction came up 15 miles north on probably the only road I hadn't checked in the area when I drove round there as it wasn't yet on Streetview, and a black panel. How about that? There's more connection as for whatever reason that complete scenario came to me a few hours before it became real. It has green algae all over it so brought soapy water and cleaned it off before I took the photo of it. Work today, just the one although two were expected, which was how I preferred it (money? who needs money?...) and delivered my 4th lot of election leaflets in the warm sun instead. More work tomorrow and going to my mum's so that's covered and Thursday can look after itself.

My next official request/prayer is for nasties not to interrupt my peace as they so often do, including the ones that happen and the ones that may happen. Regardless of my extreme reactions (magnified by being on my own) why should I be bothered with this crap especially if it's all my own creation? I'll just uncreate it in that case with the help of any powers that be. Sometimes I wonder if people destined for awakening are given more stress as it puts them off the real world and forces us to search outside it. If you're happy with everything as it is who'd want more?