Catching up-2015

I've wound down this 12 or so year old blog since the system changed and the blog community moved elsewhere. My daily life observations migrated to another site while I now use here to teach through the information and fraud blogs, but hopefully a few people still read this and remember my original activities.

Having come down with a chill as a result of my collecting activities getting me totally soaked for most of the afternoon last weekend, I am on mainly indoor duties today despite the sun shining, and given me the chance to catch up here. The activities are the same range as before, collecting, working, teaching and spiritual work. The women are as elusive as usual, with the remainder either being 99% more interested in me than vice versa, or the other way round and all mentally affected in some way as well. The spiritual work has found two online teachers, one who teaches powers and the other who passes on his enlightenment transmission, so covering both bases. Have I changed? Not to my knowledge. The powers are certainly real, or I wouldn't be spending anything on the classes, but the ones which have happened last moments and evaporate. But they exist, so just have to open the doors and keep them open, and like any major abilities take a lot of work and practice.

The teaching is the big success story of 2014. Having contacted Mark Windows I have now done two interviews for his internet TV channel, and hope to do more. People often get a sense of things being wrong, and then tell people based more on the feeling, however correct it may be, than evidence, and get labelled conspiracy theorists. That is because they do not have the training or knowledge to wait till they have a case before they go public, something few people are expected to know. But when it is real, you have a case and evidence, then it's the media who block the progress. Recently for the first time that silence has been broken, with the publication in various newspapers of the UN climate adjustments required to make random and flat temperatures all rise in concert. That is the usual process, people know about a scandal for years, and eventually one person in the media picks it up, then it becomes a big deal (although it always was), and sometimes it gets dealt with, or in the case of Libor and Hillsborough major organised frauds they got away with a slap on the wrist so far, in the case of Hillsborough barely that as no action has been taken.

I try and organise my life into plans, the usual, business and pleasure, and then find practical ways to make them happen. Of course we must work with the formula we make the starts, others finish. So you can apply for jobs, ask women out and submit articles, and regardless of the quality or otherwise it is pure chance if the first, last or no other picks them up. The media career, as all business enterprises, is the easiest to control, as I simply write, network, and offer my work around for nothing. It's early days but way beyond most, with just the top level of mainstream media exposure to finish the beginning of the serious work. The other project totally based on luck is finding ways not to live alone and have local friends to replace the ones no longer here. As most of my friends were picked up before I was 20 and lasted decades finding new ones by planning goes against the grain and methods simply did not exist till now as they arrived naturally. I have plenty of friends but now only one I can visit nearby, and only my parents now as family and cannot rely on them indefinitely of course.

My photography is the collecting, and the treatment for agoraphobia. Wanting to get old road signs and new and further places on the map gives be a bigger reason to go out than stay local. I can't stay anywhere long besides the few places like Oxford I know like home (I lived there for a year and is almost as familiar as London to me), but can keep moving and mange all sorts of distances now. Otherwise there's the varying list of places I can go to, can't and will if pushed. I'm 55 now, too late to fix it, and learnt it's no different from schizophrenia or depression in that it's part of who you are and can only be repressed except in miraculous cases of remission. I'm used to it after 30 years and just tell people now the same way you'd have to tell someone you're blind or paralysed when you're asked to climb a flight of stairs. You can't fix yourself and it's tough as hell to be treated with any amount of success without the strongest of medication, and even that is temporary as it wears off and you have to start again every few years. I'm perfectly happy when left alone and not made to go anywhere I don't like, I have other anxiety but that is part of the same thing and made far worse as I live alone and have too much time to dwell on things and not talk to others. People get blindness, they usually get schizophrenia and depression, but most seem to believe agoraphobia is based on laziness, and with enough effort you can get rid of it. Why this is I don't know, but they're no more realistic than making yourself see again. It's not as obvious as hearing voices, but I can explain it well enough I worry by doing so I would set off the switch in people so don't take the risk. It's only an extreme reaction everyone else will get but not until they're in an extreme situation, and once experienced it often keeps coming back so you do all you can to avoid it. Pretty simple and basic. They've done experiments and lock a group of people in a lift and it's only a matter of time before everyone succumbs. I would just usually be the first.

But we all keep learning and experiencing, and although sadly I discover many people cling to the views imposed on them by society without working things out for themselves, the truth is always there when anyone is ready to accept it. I do my best, my material is written there, and claims I made decades ago such as the Common Market becoming a federal state taking over all national roles one by one proved to be the case 40 years after I said it. Once you see through people's plans they are almost impossible to miss, and without the authority and power of the media almost impossible to communicate to others. The internet has slightly changed that, and with enough time and material the weight there may be enough to move to the next media level, and some people may well come on board at that point.