Progress, what progress?

Boy it's gone quiet- I did have some work today so not a total wipeout, but other plans have ended in nothing so far, and spending ages on forums presenting data on global warming most prefer to avoid. I clearly have a job to do as each believer gets sucked in, chewed up and hopefully spat out. The trickery involved make the mafia look like rank amateurs.
The snow has been replaced by two solid days of rain, I found another sign obscured by a tree online not far away, and found what I suspected, a pair of urban clearway signs on a suburban road in Surrey. No idea how they were put there, not old but just odd.

After work I've been clearing the house ready for tomorrow's visitors, I didn't go out for food due to the lousy weather and hope tomorrow's better, as I've got to cater for everyone regardless. I would be out for a walk now if it was dry but can't plan everything. I did also phone the very much ex from the middle of nowhere only to find she'd moved house and had her mobile switched off. I'll have another go though, I want to know why she's dropped me after over 30 years backwards and forwards when she was married and abroad among other things. That is a loose end that has to be tied. I also have to go to the neighhbour's bank tomorrow while probably pissing it down, and pay to park there. I was given yet another mission as well (one favour usually leads to many more) but haven't received my instructions yet so may not be able to till after the next holidays. Unless it arrives in time.

I'm still waiting for anything decent to happen for a while now, little things have turned up on and off but the momentum has swung the wrong way for a bit with lots of little things going wrong. Again it's an energy stream and can see how just like when a woman goes off you when you show yourself up, life has gone off me for a while and whatever I do besides work seems to have turned nasty. All outside my control, illustrating that if you don't work on yourself the world continues to go up and down eternally. Except mine isn't going up and down but switching to all and then nothing for weeks or more. That is the same proportions but not the same randomness, so still guided even when through series of field pancakes. I'm surviving so far but seriously stressed at the moment. Even the simple exercise of going for a walk can't be done (unless the rain stops before bedtime after 48 hours or so, some chance), so I'll keep tidying, watch more of my old videos (I'm still trying to find a part I did in Essex that has to be there somewhere) and any more will come from outside.
The stress is apparently (we have to look for the reasons) there to train me to protect myself from it, but stress is stress and hundreds of times worse with no one to help.

So I can only hope for better, it has been better and the ghosts of earlier times have returned just like the bad weather, dropping their feculence (look it up) over me and coming back for another go. I suppose everything has a polarity in duality (they are the same thing really, one is the general to the particulars) so energy can be as much the dark forces as the light. I need to find ways to clear these away as even when they appear to be going they still hang around and empty the remainder of their intestines on me before hopefully finally moving on. I still see energy systems at work around me, and have to learn to direct them or else I get the lot.

Unknown 2009-2010

First of all welcome to Laura, it's good to have another follower and still remember the busy times when I used to get 50 visits a day before the profile links went for a year and lost most people as they could no longer find me without a bookmark. Things have improved then but haven't caught up the visitors yet but keep going regardless.

The current Chinese puzzle is how to manage to get something interesting back into life when all the projects have finished. The 50% law, where I do half the work (the starts) and others finish them, means I can never be the master of my own fate, as no one ever can be. I'm still using the law of attraction but until the next one works there's bugger all going on in the meantime.
Christmas went ok, the first without my grandma, so my father came over so haven't missed one with him yet. Then to my mother in the evening as it was the day I go anyway.
Looking for the guidance in everything I did find a photo from the 60s with a sign on it confirming another I found was indeed a proper one, and then found the editing I did on another made the words show up which had previously been illegible and too far to do again.

Since then it's been quiet as Hendon, especially as I only live yards away from it. I did go and get some very good examples of modernist houses today as it was on the list and actually dry and sunny for a change. There are a few things that could happen sooner or later, but of course the whens and ifs are out of my hands. The proper teachers all say to meditate instead of get involved in all the unreliable crap, but when like the Celestine Prophecy the crap starts to work like a machine you do wonder. It is a sign of progress though so not dismissed altogether. The belief you have to satisfy everything earthly before you can move on spiritually, as suggested by Osho, makes the most sense. If you believe in a creator if we were made with desires we were supposed to satisfy them, not ignore them. And I have rather a lot left.

So if I can return to the lists to organise myself, the current starts I have to forget about unless they finish (except when I'm too bored not to) are:

Getting the book published with my photos in it
Will I meet the woman from the TV when I make my delivery rather than by post?
Is the old sign still at the museum (opens January the 6th) which is still 40 miles away, and if so is the other one still nearby where I hope it is (no one actually told me).
Blimey, is there anything else? You can see my problem.

Otherwise I have two days to get the house ready for the new year annual visitors, so they can sit on the chairs and eat at the table. No known photo visits in reserve until I find more to take, and can only keep going and leave the door open for other results.

Snowed in, week 2 begins

The snow (day 8) made sure I had little to do and more time for the computer again, although may be gone tomorrow as it's been raining for hours. Last night some total mental midget called the radio claiming the snow wasn't due to global warming but climate change. He must have been pretty young as anyone about 50 or more will tell you snow here in December is not new, but perfectly normal. And moving the snow from early winter to late winter isn't much of a change either, it's still snow. I'm wondering how far these modern day Jesus freaks can stretch the scapegoat mentality the way Hitler did, and instead of the Jews blame every ill on climate change. It's a virus that's affected some and others not at all. I work to neutralise them one by one and honestly every soul I save with simple facts is a miracle, just like a cult buster for the routine is identical.
I say it every time, I'll stop going on about it when they do, but if I ignore it they'll think they're right.

I do suspect many would do just that, if global warming was admitted as yet another 'mistake' (we know what that really means) then they'd just switch to something else, as they feel so victimised by the world if the people can't be blamed for having more money than them and actually daring to drive cars, then the Jews will be a very easy alternative target. With a recession I just saw a big knob on Facebook picking apart the recession and blaming Zionists. Now Hitler has not died in spirit as the same now hard left (they called themselves socialists as well) have the same views but just replace the word 'Jew' with 'Zionist'. Not all correspond but a pretty high correlation, enough to assume a connection with hating either/both. People who blame others for the problems in their life are going to bully people unless they grow up, which rarely seems to happen.

The news has been extremely quiet this week, outside and around me, and am finding it hard to do any more to make anything interesting happen. There's a fixed amount of data on the internet, as items in my house, and when you've found all the items in any set, like old road signs, you can't keep looking any more. I hope things pick up soon, even though the interesting period has been something quite recent I do miss it when it goes and it all appears to return to the way it was before. I can see how what they call raising your vibration works, and don't think it will drop much once you have whatever it seems at the time. Once you've seen a new system work you don't expect it to disappear. And a week since I took a photo- I did the whole snow lot in February and besides the roads being unusable they'd all have looked the same if I had got anywhere. There was a bit more TV on today and had to wait in for the cleaner so missed a trip I intended to make when the sun was out. Then I heard the main road was down to a single lane and backed up for miles, and the cleaner was caught in it for an hour as well. So I stayed in besides a trip to replace the milk I got from a less reputable outlet that packed up two days before it was supposed to. I really haven't achieved a lot this week as there wasn't a lot left to do indoors. There aren't any friends for miles and can't go out in the evenings to the few who may have me while the roads are iced over. Of course my grandma took up two evenings a week for some years till June, but where she lives I may not have got to either as the top of a very steep hill and people have been sliding down them here for a week. This time there's really very little else I could do.

Snowed in

As it's icy and covered in snow outside there's less to report and more time to report it. Go figure. I got my neighbour's banking done for him despite the weather, second try and at least know what to do and where to go for the second one. Tomorrow's wonderful dirty job has been cancelled at least due to the weather, and have Streetviewed the next photo trip but not sure when the snow will allow it to happen. Then I have to clear downstairs ready for the visitors at new year as I've done since my friends went abroad when we took it in turns. If nothing else I can Streetview most of the day if stuck indoors, except last night when the cable went down yet again for a couple of hours.

You do get hooked on the smallest things when alone, so spent the day working through a new loaf of pretty decent bread before it needs freezing to catch the mould in time. And the dietician says it doesn't put on weight like cakes so not so guilty for doing so. Next weekend I could go 40 miles for a sign 'because it is there' although may be classed as a museum exhibit, but unlikely to get it otherwise. There was also another nearby so will check that out as well. I remember in 1996 or so I went to someone on the A3 somewhere that way to get some old train tickets for my collection, and realised when I'd left I wasn't that far from Portsmouth so carried on and did the 30 or so miles there to get some pretty good ferry tickets before they also went soon after. I collected the final batch of used tickets from the ferry office nearby after that after phoning to ask them. The Portsmouth Harbour ticket office kept me visiting regularly after the rest of the country had long stopped using the old train tickets, and missed seeing the Queen the second time in my life as I saw police swarming around and automatically walked the other way. On my return the Queen's car was there, having dropped her off and missed seeing her by a few minutes. That was after the office visit but can't have it all.

I suppose as long as the internet's connected a day at home free is never a bad thing, but can run out of appeal the third in a row which will happen soon if it stays the same outside. I could do more of the internet course tomorrow I suppose, and just get on with it till the weather breaks. And still looking for hidden treasure if any exists.

Something from nothing

This time last week I'd found an old sign on Streetview (rarest set of all) and was twiddling my thumbs waiting for the following day when I could go there and check. With nothing else to do I searched for more on photo sites, and after a few hours just at bedtime I found one a few miles away taken in June. So Monday I went there and found it, although there had been two in the parallel road that were gone a year ago when I discovered them. Later I drove the 20 miles or so to the other one to find a lamp post. A one one draw but got paid for it so in profit with something I wasn't expecting to find there.

This weekend I am lost, since the car radio was fixed on Tuesday for nothing it snowed and froze and just made quick trips to the park and shops before it got dark. I'm back on the net searches now as I can't go and take them if I don't look online. You can't drive every street in London just in case, but I did as many main roads as I could before Streetview and still drive whole towns in Surrey which doesn't take as long as you'd think. Besides being coralled into cleaning out someone's garage (I think he's scared of spiders, honestly!) on Wednesday (slightly less trouble than a funeral but no more pleasurable) the diary's clear ahead. But so are the ideas. If Roger's prediction of the next woman coming to me happens it will save my wasted effort trying to catch the impossible, like when the red triangle sign turned up at random in my messages after I'd already Streetviewed the spot. As I say, half and half, we can't make all our own results by effort.

I'm glad to say I did just get to summarise my last entry on Copenhagen on the radio, as what they did is no less than the biggest fraud on earth, as it involves every country that was there. How the most trivial amount of an equally trivial and vital gas can be blamed for something that hasn't even happened shows me how the world IQ is so damn low there are enough sheep to swallow the garbage and not see the huge holes that grow week by week until there'll be no garment left, just a few threads. Like the emperor's although you could never see these except in your imaginations.

There is the flow diagram I do which I can try and reproduce here for the unknown time ahead, thank goodness since things seemed to be guided the random has appeared to be more positive than in the toilet on average as it did previously.

Now:--------expected------> No more than usual> 1 week 2 weeks > possible book
\------better------find another sign
\ ---any unknown good news
\ ---other project completed- sign saved/completed Hertfordshire
\---->late result from past efforts

Usually this would have stuck stubbornly to the predictable line, but now signs have turned up about weekly for a year, with Streetview to help even after I'd covered most of London physically already. But the climategate emails saved me the hard work I've been putting in more and more for years saying what I knew they were up to, and now unless people believe their excuses (er, they didn't have any) we know. Things can shift in every stuck area, and even though the poor green bedwetting sheep are wetting their pants even more as Obama and his merry men haven't agreed to rule the world with an iron staff, it's their money that would be saved if all this stopped today as well as mine. So like God in the bible you have to teach your children with your greater knowledge even if they feel hard done by. I am honestly trying to save us all including the wimps and wets who can't challenge a thing they are told by anyone in authority.

So I have another test of the guidance. I really trust it now as although there's been plenty of shit to slip in since it happened I don't seem to have broken anything when I did. I do my bit, I spend hours searching online when nothing else to do, and always get other photos when I find something unless I go in the dark. I hadn't been to some places I used to know well for years as no reason or incentive, plus the congestion charge as a Berlin Wall with cameras. I'm sure Surrey has more, probably even a red triangle on some farm track, but how long would it take to find one?

Almost very interesting

Well the system nearly beat me but now know they must have engineers on round the clock as the cable went down at 12.30 am when I was writing this and just came back a few hours later, and I only came down to check as I needed to play a couple of daily quizzes I'm in this month. Nice to get a decent result on the internet for a change. I'd just written that the first step in world government would be when they agreed a deal at Copenhagen as it would set a precedent of the first legally binding law worldwide. It didn't happen but when it does they will then be able to have a tax that operates independently of who we elect. Very 1984.

Secondly the agreement they made would have made me pee my pants laughing had 99% of the media and half the world not actually swallowed it. They have 'agreed to keep world temperatures down by 2''. Now that is like the Mafia, who I mentioned yesterday and clearly now running the UN. They have a very similar deal, pay us weekly and we won't wreck your building. Now in 30, 60, and even 90 years each generation will see the figures and say 'Wasn't Barack Obama a saint as temperatures haven't gone up 2' '. Well Sherlock, you know why? Yes, because they weren't going to. Now if I say (as the rival messiah) the sun will rise tomorrow will that make me a saint as well? Grow up world and see the bullshit.

Meanwhile the real power lies with each individual to avoid any of the crap life sends us. Until they physically lock us up the bright can dodge and swerve as much oppression as possible, and my next prediction is that it will soon become an offence worldwide to deny global warming, and no, that is not a joke. They can make any damn law they like and believe me this is just the start of it.
So I'm up an hour later than I should be but 'business as usual'. Sod all to do tomorrow and beyond, and would really like more than making the best of nothing, housework, snow and ice, phoning dubious people and more. The next test (also inspired by a message I just received mirroring my own type of experiences) is to see how the guidance covers everything, not just the active periods. It has to technically cover every moment and a challenge to see how. I may for instance expect tomorrow to lack every single element of possible interest, think of no more when it actually arrives, and something happens to change it.

So until I'm either employed by a media outlet or arrested for my anti-establishment essays I'll be writing it all here. Technically if you detach from the hype then analysing simple data will tell every person on earth the same thing:

Atmosphere- very large.
CO2- under 0.1%
Our contribution- 3%

These figures are not in dispute, just the suppositions from them. Judge the tree by the fruit, when they announced not the current figures but 'predicted' ones, what was the result? Huge taxes. The sole result of the story of global warming has been to rob us and restrict third world expansion. That is not science but dictatorship. And more figures:

Sea level rise in the last 100 years- 8 inches
Predicted sea level rise for next 100 (multiple choice)
a) Ten feet
b) 12 inches
c) 100 inches
d) 2 feet

I obviously know these are the official figures and which one is correct, but the morons who call the radio about what the heck will happen to the Pacific islands I guarantee haven't a clue.

Lack of education is the real disease, that opens the door to the gullible and those who take advantage of the masses who are. Don't be a sheep, don't be a follower, look up the facts!

Telling the truth

Before I go to bed I must do this, it winds me down and whatever may have gone round my head there can come out and bother all of you instead. I got out to the park before the snow was too bad today, took some photos, bought enough supplies for a few days and came home. I did also nip out later as it was a massive blizzard, made a video and then sent the radio an email as they wanted weather reports and they put the details on air. Lots of views and comments, very useful. What's the point doing the work when hardly anyone knows about it?

I had the rest of the day to keep myself amused with barely any evening (or daytime) TV worth watching, something that kept me occupied half the day before I got the internet. Looking back on the week it's been a bit of everything, and looking for the guidance see it as challenging me with most types of problem so I could get used to dealing with them. The one reward (in hand) was a direction sign on the doorstep, although lost a really rare one due to the delay between Streetview and the reality of the present. I can run out of things to look for on the internet, jobs to do at home and basically everything if it gets dark at 4 and snowed in at night. Freedom is half the job but can't do it all yourself to fill it.

Just looking ahead to what could happen, I am still now waiting to be published in a book sooner or later (photos anyhow), a final sign restoration decision, and if anything else can't think of it. And the Youtube guru just explained how universal consciousness is hidden by mental activity so when that is cleared then everyone experiences the same thing described by Buddha. You can't do it by will as the mind is the will, so need indirect practices of any type to divert the mind until it clears enough to see the peace behind it. Something I've never seen after 12 years of lessons and practice but until recently hardly anyone else seemed to either.
I have however tuned into (before reading it) the system of the Celestine Prophecy, as I am now for the first time able to sense good things coming to me, and possibly even draw them to me. Like my clairvoyance I don't challenge any phenomena as clearly natural and expect them to work rather than try and analyse anything.

I have seen rewards beyond those seen for a long time, gradually reaching higher levels although some way to go. I have my list as requested, so when you organise the aims and direct yourself towards them you can clearly see when you tick them off. Now I did no more to get the red triangle sign than join a group that collects them so get informed by those who know me when they find one locally, and not at all by others. But I still find them eventually by searching and can't do them all myself as Streetview can't see them all. Ahead of that I'm hoping to keep building on the power/energy so what seem closer to miracles start happening and become normal. Just like my weights I can do a lot more with the same amount of effort each time, so see more miracles happening implying they can get more and more unlikely ones to happen. One I am waiting on (something I don't even really need but where I feel I should be) would be like your 'M Phil' level of success in attraction (although manipulation of energy is another way of seeing it work), and each goal will show me how far I've got.

Of course having a woman still either needs me to be able to do more that they usually like doing, unless I find one who doesn't. I can't become something I'm not and shouldn't have to, as it's quite different to reform a criminal and a phobic. I'm not hurting anyone and actually don't give a damn if I never do any of those things again as if I liked them that much I wouldn't be phobic about them. That is logical, why would you avoid anything if it was pleasant? I'd just be happy with a community of local people I could see and mix with around, and you don't get that in London, and have to rely on your family. But that's on the list as well and I would think once you find the formula should work for most things.

Look at global warming. I was killing myself researching and arguing with the believers to try and win back their souls, just like cult breaking. In fact the behaviour is identical. Believers are no different from any other, and need every possible method to break each one by one. And then what happened? Every piece of cheating I inferred from my own research came out as it was there all the time. Copenhagen is like having a fundraiser for square wheels or reviving the dead. They know it in their hearts and are really flogging a dead horse now regardless of the empty rhetoric. They are beaten, they know it, and now more about how they can disappear quietly without openly admitting defeat. Pretending they can't come to an agreement would be a good start, as by eventually abandoning all attempts to do whatever they say they're trying to do because they can't get the wogs to agree (their words, potentially, not mine) would be a good enough getout clause as any other without admitting they were wrong.

There is (in this dimension anyway) only one truth, and you can't have a variety to suit your policies whatever you say. In the end you'll either run out of time or the truth will show itself and wipe out the alternatives. Making up god is the longest one that can last as that's basically saying 'Here's a theory with no data or evidence but we still say it's right'. Most people just ignore them now as they don't do any harm really and can believe it if it makes them happy. But other shit they shove down our throats is not harmless and if you pretend unlimited immigration and overpopulation is OK, muslims don't kill their own, black people don't knife more people than anyone in the country etc, then it will still be true, but you'll be as bad as they are. If you protect evil with a lie then you are part of that evil, in British law then you are guilty of it as well as a secondary party. Just let people see what is there as saying it isn't won't get rid of the smell in the room when it is. You can't wish away a hidden pile of cat shit, you have to first admit it's there and then clean it up. Same with all the other issues the left (for it is they who currently deny them all) want the world to believe don't exist and the ones they want us to that really don't. I was taught not to lie, make personal remarks or kick my nanny by the age of three and is not something anyone else can't learn even when they've strayed too far to the other side.

While I'm here...

A successful day I can announce. The car radio was a simple earthing, saving me an arm and part of a kidney on a replacement, and then a possible reversal of a decision to remove an old sign after my reply. I am (and others) justifiably pissed off missing what may have been a 'SLOW MAJOR ROAD AHEAD' sign not too far from me, but that's the game when collecting anything that's beyond it's natural or official life. And as far as I know possibly the only one that was not remade but dropped entirely.
Tomorrow is boring city Arizona potentially, if I am called to ex-grandma's to let in the insurance man after the roof failed. It depends if he comes early or late whether it's my shift, so not certain. Then I can do whatever I like, having gone from Richmond to Hammersmith, then Oakwood and then home to Kingsbury yesterday. Today I wasn't imagining it got dark 20 minutes later than a week ago in the same weather as my father noticed it as well, and the camera doesn't lie as I went to the nearby park after the radio was fixed and took photos till almost 4pm. Last week 3.30 was it. I have the proof.

So I just get on with it and as taught take the rough and smooth as equally as I can, as eventually we are meant to adjust our reactions to both back to zero either way. Be unmoved and the peace within shall prevail. If I get that far I'll become a saint, literally, by the eastern definition. That is a mahatma as their soul has expanded beyond that they were born with. I am therefore being forced to have the patience of a saint, and yesterday was rewarded by an extremely unlikely direction sign before the ultimate disappointment of losing one so rare the next known are 140+ miles away. My own inspiration tends to be extensions of existing projects that just take a jump to another level or direction when worn out.

So I've been working pretty hard, more to come possibly, and at least the big ones are out of the way and cost me almost nothing (the wheel cover fell off the car so had to get a new set but very cheap). I never know what's going to happen next, there is still this random chance of getting what I need at the time which has never happened till this year, and even when I think it may have run out in a particular area. Sometimes it's my own thoughts which are guided, web searches that fill idle evenings can take hours and suddenly strike gold, like when I was metal detecting (minus the gold though).

The same with names from the past except so far none have done more than see me once and return to the ends of the earth. So many total twats and wankers have no trouble meeting a partner and I know I can't be quite that bad and never get half way there. I blamed my height for many years until I saw men about the same size doing OK, and also realised I had plenty in the past but could never keep them long enough to matter. No agoraphobia then either, I went anywhere and did anything so that didn't keep them either, I held in my farts, didn't swear, paid for them most of the time, made them laugh, etc etc, and they still dumped me serially. I didn't try anything kinky (not for months anyway when I knew I'd stand a chance), spit, pick my nose, pick my arse, bathed frequently enough, changed the subject every so often, listened a lot, was nice to their parents, and possibly besides scratching and fidgeting (I'm only human) was pretty average besides my height which is not exactly unusual. I am lost as to the constant failure from the age of 15 when her mother made her stop seeing me, to the one at 20 with no sense of humour, the communist at 18, the one who emigrated within a week at 32, the one at 25 who kept going back to her ex and wouldn't go past first base (if I've learnt them correctly), a few who lived about 70 miles away and couldn't keep travelling, and the one I liked but couldn't be bothered to do the 40 or so miles after the others who were even further, ie the only one who actually liked me back.

So in 49 years more or less (I was after someone in my class at about 3 so started early), I reckon two mutual chances, one stopped by her mother and the other by me as it's easier to be put off when younger and still have hopes of choice. Am I really that hard to tolerate?

Holes in one or bogies?

Another day passes and will discover tomorrow if another very rare sign is indeed in existence. Other than that it's no business as usual, but all will be fine if tomorrow is a success. Every now and then I see something fall into place where it should be, like the string of emails in today's paper demonstrating how the crooks at the university of East Anglia who removed tree ring data and the high temperatures already experienced around 1100 as it would 'seriously water down the message'. No shit Sherlock. Justice to be seen to be done at last? We will see.

No other plans besides taking the car radio in to be robbed and more sorting at late grandma's house this week. I think a few miracles probably have happened recently, most of all the red triangle sign finally turning up last week. I didn't search for it (well I did but wasn't visible online so couldn't actually find it that way) and someone just happened to see it on a route they'd always used as I raised the subject. Getting the climategate emails is something of a miracle as although anyone who looks can find the alternative (ie honest) climate figures no one dared print them till they were proved to be the true ones this way. Now Tiger Woods' marketing career is down the toilet he ought to be brought in to handle the global warming crisis. In a few weeks they'd be paying the money back in our bank accounts with apologies.

On the infidelity front I am struggling on the whys of anyone doing it. I have always settled for onw woman when no others were better. Now if no others are better and I've actually got the one who is better then why would I want anyone else as well? Answers on a postcard please. It's like getting bored with your house and wanting to live in different ones a couple of days a week. I know it's common but seriously weird. Now if one woman is good in one way but not others that's a reason to wait for one who isn't, but maybe some people are impatient, or just plain stupid.
I am running out of material but little else to do with the two boring snooker players about to outbore each other on TV in a minute when Ding Junhui wins again as if anyone actually cares. Having watched the snooker since Pot Black in the early 70s things have changed a lot and not for the better. Making them play round the world means most retire at 40 and you lose every decent player once you get used to them, apart from the once boring Steve Davis.

Not a lot else to report, I have my sweets and chocolates for the next couple of weeks but have to ration them, the gym was closed when I got there, which happens randomly especially on Sundays and basically a few quid down the toilet as I can't make it up another day in the week. The usual reason in the past (since they got this manager) was 'there weren't enough people there'. If that was a valid excuse Ireland would have been closed years ago. Goodnight.

Inspiration required

My current task, to convert potential freedom to something interesting. I've done what I had to do today (get a quite expensive memory card fixed for nothing on my camera) and have basically cleared all the expansive vista of shit from the past week and in my opinion did pretty well. The last time it was clear plenty arrived to keep me busy, and one of those times other people have to be as much responsible as me. I've also got the car radio (which I have to pay for) to fix on Tuesday so I can listen to more than one station and that's it.

If the next decade of my life (a month ahead roughly) means dropping the bar even lower for marriage material I may be after blokes at this rate. No, that won't happen but some of the women may resemble them... I mean we all need to eat but won't eat anything even if good for us. Of course we'd die without food so if I had to eat some creepy crawlies to stay alive I probably would, but won't die if I don't share my life with one. And I had another offer, but as women turn down 80% (or more) of offers to them I'm entitled to turn down 20% of the ones I get. Not even a road test here unless it comes gift wrapped.

Tomorrow is the beginning of my new project, fill the space and time. No photos as by the time the cleaner arrives it'll almost be dark, but the one thing I should do is phone the only woman I like who stood by me intermittently for over 30 years before dropping me like most of the others. A final ending there. That's a start anyway, and presumably Streetviewing will continue regardless until every road is covered (pretty close already). Despite the latest and best sign being invisible on it. But quite a few were not and damn useful to have had. Now the other thread that can be tapped (it happens now and again) is miracles. Rather than spread it so wide, I'll go for one type, and a very rare one, people changing their minds.

Now technically I could write another article on this. It does happen sometimes, especially in politics, but not for personal or work decisions. Even I don't very much. Not that I make any that affect other people so rarely had the need to be persuaded. If I was a lot of the time unless the person was a criminal or thereabouts I may give in just to do my bit as a saint. Giving up your own pride to help someone who needs it is the act of a saint as how many times has it happened to you? Not many I'd guess. I have a list of arseholes and twats who have stitched me up badly in the last few years, and the ones I know would be more likely to 'walk up the Strand with their cock/alternative in their hand' (to quote an old rugby song) than swallow their pride and apologise or equivalent.

And have I come across (and still do) some prizewinners. Twat of the century level. If I didn't value my life I'd like to name each one and why here, but those things have a way of coming back and biting you, but basically they:

Called me every name under the sun after I did them a favour and never spoke to me again.
Set me up to wreck my plan to replace an old sign and then insulted me for it.
Pretended he'd fix an old sign and then planned to remove it after I said where it was.
Wasted three of my newspaper interviews.
Sacked me from a voluntary position after 5 hard working years for a reason created to do so.
Wrote a parking ticket after I asked if it was OK to park where I did (having paid for a ticket).

I'm sure there are others but that's a standard selection. That is the reason some put curses on people as there's no other legal way to get revenge, but following Buddhism I see it as their lower nature and move on. I don't think they'll get any karma as sadists always seem to succeed, but it's not my job to reform anyone, that's what miracles are for.

Same as bloody usual

The Celestine Prophecy tells us once the guidance is there we must look for it in everything. So all the stress I've had this week (some shared here and more) was dealt with where possible and dropped. It's now passed and I've come out the other side. I have to take the memory card to the shop tomorrow with some ID as the receipt has vanished, and hope to get a new one and otherwise job done.
I'm not usually good with stress, but if you either crack up or cope I decided to deal with it and coped. The prophecy says look for the message and that was mine. No more for a while now please.

Ahead I see no more, but that's normal, including lack of plans and ideas, and will just wait till the time comes. I've emailed letters to the two local papers about the council removing the last of an old sign design and if one publishes I may have a chance. These (insert bad word here) need to be fought to every last cause or they'll walk all over us. I'll never show anyone in the council where one is again now, I tried and was confirmed to be suspicious. The concepts of flexibility and discretions simply don't exist when most people are promoted beyond their capabilities. So we can't trust or rely on any of them as they are like the crocodile, programmed to destroy their prey, ie the general public.

So, life is still partly as per usual and partly a mystery. I expect most ahead to be as before, but that does now include some of interest as well as the normal routine. There is definitely a frequency for each area in life, or my electrical things couldn't all pack up at once on more than one occasion. Two women in a couple of days in 2002 after a few blank years, etc etc. Last week was testing my strength and now seems to be over, so hopefully something positive will come next as I've had my initiation and probably passed it so no need for more of the same.

Get thee to Copenhagen

I'm still being tested, but to see how the ordinary everyday shit we all get can be dealt with without any help. I had a lot but think I got through OK. The arsehole at the county council just told me after all my requests he was simply removing the old sign I asked them to paint. Fucking bastards these officials are, I'm never wasting my time with one again. None want to help, they do something if they think they have to. I've asked my little online groups to help and also contacting the press but one thing little Hitlers do is make their minds up finally. I can't think of more than one occasion that hasn't happened, and then maybe the decision wasn't as final as it looked at the time. And that was a bloody big one so if any have to change their mind his was the most important. The others are just annoying, that was my whole career.

So having survived the date, and now apparently in a position where she appears to want nothing or marriage (why do people try and force me to extremes?) where I'd give it at least a year like most sensible people. But it went OK otherwise and we did get to talk about the total lack of any relationship despite everyone else around expecting it to happen. My car radio is up the shoot, and no guarantee or clue how many figures it will cost. I may just put in an old one except the space is twice the size of any other radio. The camera memory card is supposed to be under guarantee, although I can't find the receipt they seem not to mind.
Tomorrow I may try another place for a car radio, go and get a football programme for someone if they're open (and the sign in daylight) or something else if not possible. But I'm free, the arrangement to tidy at my late grandma's being cancelled although I had to do my part but went tonight. The fixed roof was not fixed and flooded the study, and is now pissing down before the builder arrives tomorrow.

So I've passed through a storm and come out in one piece, and if the sign (probably unique now) is removed I've got the photos so sod them. Had I said nothing it would still be there in another 50 years but the chance of seeing it like new was almost worth the risk. Just confirmed never mess with the enemy. No more plans really. The photo book may be out this month, but when someone 'hopes it will be...' I'd give it three. Or maybe six. Meanwhile Copenhagen continues, they have found a solution to burning fossil fuel, they're burning our money now instead.

The Copenhagen Summit

It's a shame so few people are going to read this, and can only hope the message is echoed in many blogs and articles worldwide. The Copenhagen summit is indeed the most important meeting this century, as our whole way of life, freedoms and the truth itself is at stake.
If they find any agreement at all, basically our money will instantly buy less and our lives gradually driven back to pre-industrial standards. Power cuts have already been predicted by the UK government's agencies as a result of existing 'green' policies, and if even more tax is imposed on the west these should extend across continents.

Now the general public have seen the machinations behind the global warming production, nothing further should be done in its name until the science is checked (as it now is being, but says will take up to three years while our pockets will continue to be picked) as basically all the money is being taken on false pretences. And love him or hate him David Icke saw this one coming as announced a few minutes ago on the news, Barack Obama is about to change the law to override their parliament to get his global warming laws through the senate. This means he is legally going to do something which is theoretically impossible under the US constitution (something I don't know a lot about here admittedly) but with my own (degree level) knowledge of constitutional law would have thought no US constitution would allow. If not then they may as well flush their constitution down the toilet.

So those democrats (small d obviously) in The States who said not to worry about Cap and Trade as the senate would never pass it have seen the insidious methods the global warming monster will use to push aside everything in its way. And like the anti-terrorism laws before it, all claim to remove our rights for our own safety, as David Icke said would happen many years before. But the bottom line is the foundation of all life which they can't beat, the truth. Once the true figures creep out under the smokescreens clearly produced by the IPCC sponsored goons, and in 50 and 100 years when most of us are gone the new generations, looking at frozen poles, glaciers, polar bears and normal average temperatures (what is normal again?) it will be over. But the longer it takes the more wind farms, solar panels and other expensive wastes of space will be in place, costing us double for our energy (UK wholesale gas prices have halved while prices we pay remain the same) and ever more. The leaked emails were the lifeline the truth needed to get the figures from the shade of the internet, where people have to decide to go and look, to the TVs where everyone sees them whether they want to or not.

So Copenhagen is basically the turning point of world civilisation. What is decided will ascertain whether life around the world is based on domination, dictatorship, totalitarianism and most of all lies, or will truth win the day? In two weeks the verdict will be out. And if life had any justice so would be President Obama.

A bit of a mystery

Forthcoming events have always cast a cloud over my life unless something else is distracting me, and if my mind wonders I'll be worrying about Tuesday until it's over. My nature and outside my control. Otherwise it's been very quiet, the work was cancelled on Saturday and pissing with rain so got my paperwork done and then fiddled about till I went to the gym. No plans either so like every other event and plan before half is my work and half is from outside. The guidance must now deal with what causes the stress and somehow make me immune from more and more or any potential problem will get me every time.

Other than that little is happening in the present, and being December can quickly look back and say I've done more ths year than about the last three. Collecting old road signs has got me in a 30 mile circle I hadn't explored for some years. The new car also makes it easier although the radio gave out and just hope it's under guarantee as has to go back on Tuesday. Better than the car packing up anyway. I do need some more inspiration, I've completed a major mission but life has to follow and be used.
Tomorrow is a blank slate altogether, as is most of the week really. That's the rest of the mystery but once the 'date' (it's not as she's really showing no interest in more than my car and where it can take her) is over I shouldn't really care.

So the guidance is being tested now to see whether it can also drag me from the depths as well as point me to the highs. If you fall then Buddha was right that all the good and bad cancel out and you must stop being affected by both. If anyone can truly claim that I'd be very surprised but part of the teaching. I'll go for any percentage improvement, 100% being a miracle.
If anyone knows where the link is for 'add instant blog reactions' let me know, it comes up every now and then but never when I need to activate it. Not very good marketing.

I've done it!

The more time passes, despite what appear to be gaps, the guidance continues, and I seem to almost feel when something is close as well, besides having predictive dreams. From a wild goose chase to a misidentified sign on Saturday I made two trips to mop up the private signs around Regents Park, having already done the ones actually in it I discovered they were in the surrounding roads as well as I checked when I knew I'd be there last weekend. After then bumping into my mum's incredibly sexy neighbour for the third time while shopping I carried a couple of stone of bags home, and was absolutely knackered.
Then I looked in my messages and had a link for a sign someone had found half an hour from me, and it was actually a genuine one with the red triangle on top.

I have one, also in London, but with an edge missing, this had no picture (many text only panels had them as well) but had been fully restored and looked like new. There you go, it can happen sometimes. And just for those with a little knowledge of these phenomena, I'd done some dowsing on a map drawn on a piece of paper in case that could focus me to where the sign could be, as I was trained with cards and other items, and wrote a few names, and just one in large capitals, for no reason other than it seemed to come to me, "BARNET". I'd totally forgotten this as it was a few weeks ago, and looked back a few pages in the notebook and there it was, exactly where it was in reality. What trick will I pull next I wonder? Another one, and maybe a woman as well?

Work tomorrow (1 session anyway) and then a normal weekend, but one less thing to search or hope for. I actually checked the same road on Streetview already but had a tree covering the sign which has been cut down now, and couldn't see it. Meanwhile I'm just keeping busy, doing my shopping (christmas cards today), and getting jobs done in the house. Then the ridiculous Copenhagen summit next week, the greatest organised crime in the history of the world, and I suspect the wind's been taken out of their sails. Any honest and intelligent person can't now accept any of the guff we've been fed since Michael Mann invented the theory based on a false computer model, and with Al Gore managed to convince half the world to tax their citizens and drive them back to the stone age 'because they said so'.

Global warming has operated as an intelligence test for the world, and many people failed but more have passed, given the general opinion of the ordinary guys who call the radio with no axe to grind and most respectable journalists who get paid to disagree with the establishment if they do, not sacked. And my final point, to answer a typical twat on the radio, is that no one has to be a scientist to have an opinion, that is what a jury does, and the IPCC. They rely on scientists to make their own minds up and once the scientists drop the BS and start telling the truth there won't even be a case left to hear.

Agoraphobia day!

Although I rarely mention it now as I rarely go where requested, I was cheated into accepting another evening in a not-local pub next week. Luckily the same person got me to survive an evening in another one recently so have the precedent, and although I could probably cope with a local one instead most have long since become blocks of flats so hardly any actually on the doorstep without either thugs or old miseries. My tablets are required to take the edge off the day, but may dwell on it on and off the whole time before it comes next week, that is almost as bad as the event as you can't live normally with a stone in your shoe.

Otherwise I've been out and about as it suits me, I took a lot (more remaining though) of private signs in Regents Park yesterday, as although they are not official have an old set just like the others in style and quite a few have been left unlike elsewhere. It's been raining again all day so scanned in the final photos and now have quite a few of our old cars and even half an old direction sign from before I was born. I must do the supermarket tomorrow or I'll run out of food, and beyond that is a mystery. If something else better takes my attention it can wipe out any concern about the pub, but that is outside my control if it does.

My other projects are so uncertain or personal they can't be mentioned here, but none are likely to happen for weeks at the earliest so can't expect any of them to do the job. My finances will be changing soon (for the better overall but not quite as reliable), I have also started laser treatment on my hair as the FDA in America have approved it with good results and a twentieth the price of having it done privately. That takes months before showing any results so just apply it three times a week and leave it alone otherwise and forget about it. The long term plan is to find another friend locally, male. female or both, and one not more trouble than being on my own. I've never looked for a friend in my life, they were just there. This is a first. Facebook has been useless so far, the one friend had just moved abroad after being round the corner (relatively) for years, and the latest fuckers just ignored my messages.
One who didn't although didn't remember me either suddenly invited me over, I replied when and she never answered. She is single but clearly for good reasons. It's like I'm tuned for 'weird' so like a magnet instead of picking up iron pick up weird people and repel the others.

But I must try and remain positive in all this, see there must still be guidance in it all and maybe the pub visit may ultimately lead to a leg over situation. Needless to say the woman is incredibly attractive or I'd just have sidestepped the whole thing, but I can't start fiddling around when crumpet is involved however unlikely the chances are of success. I'd understand if a woman didn't like going out but I've been there myself so would. I won't do nothing, but if she wants to go to a pub would like some say in which one, even though all mine have been demolished. She used to have a car so could come over when she wanted as well, but finances put a stop to that and if she comes over now needs arranging and me going to collect her and take her home. That's not a problem but means she can't just come and go as she pleases as she doesn't like being at home much herself.

So, a small turd hits the fan as they must from time to time, and only for me to deal with now or never. I know that's the reason and step one is to forget about it unless it comes to me, in which case I let the thought pass, till next week. Having something else to do will help and no idea what that would be.