Progress, what progress?

Boy it's gone quiet- I did have some work today so not a total wipeout, but other plans have ended in nothing so far, and spending ages on forums presenting data on global warming most prefer to avoid. I clearly have a job to do as each believer gets sucked in, chewed up and hopefully spat out. The trickery involved make the mafia look like rank amateurs.
The snow has been replaced by two solid days of rain, I found another sign obscured by a tree online not far away, and found what I suspected, a pair of urban clearway signs on a suburban road in Surrey. No idea how they were put there, not old but just odd.

After work I've been clearing the house ready for tomorrow's visitors, I didn't go out for food due to the lousy weather and hope tomorrow's better, as I've got to cater for everyone regardless. I would be out for a walk now if it was dry but can't plan everything. I did also phone the very much ex from the middle of nowhere only to find she'd moved house and had her mobile switched off. I'll have another go though, I want to know why she's dropped me after over 30 years backwards and forwards when she was married and abroad among other things. That is a loose end that has to be tied. I also have to go to the neighhbour's bank tomorrow while probably pissing it down, and pay to park there. I was given yet another mission as well (one favour usually leads to many more) but haven't received my instructions yet so may not be able to till after the next holidays. Unless it arrives in time.

I'm still waiting for anything decent to happen for a while now, little things have turned up on and off but the momentum has swung the wrong way for a bit with lots of little things going wrong. Again it's an energy stream and can see how just like when a woman goes off you when you show yourself up, life has gone off me for a while and whatever I do besides work seems to have turned nasty. All outside my control, illustrating that if you don't work on yourself the world continues to go up and down eternally. Except mine isn't going up and down but switching to all and then nothing for weeks or more. That is the same proportions but not the same randomness, so still guided even when through series of field pancakes. I'm surviving so far but seriously stressed at the moment. Even the simple exercise of going for a walk can't be done (unless the rain stops before bedtime after 48 hours or so, some chance), so I'll keep tidying, watch more of my old videos (I'm still trying to find a part I did in Essex that has to be there somewhere) and any more will come from outside.
The stress is apparently (we have to look for the reasons) there to train me to protect myself from it, but stress is stress and hundreds of times worse with no one to help.

So I can only hope for better, it has been better and the ghosts of earlier times have returned just like the bad weather, dropping their feculence (look it up) over me and coming back for another go. I suppose everything has a polarity in duality (they are the same thing really, one is the general to the particulars) so energy can be as much the dark forces as the light. I need to find ways to clear these away as even when they appear to be going they still hang around and empty the remainder of their intestines on me before hopefully finally moving on. I still see energy systems at work around me, and have to learn to direct them or else I get the lot.

Unknown 2009-2010

First of all welcome to Laura, it's good to have another follower and still remember the busy times when I used to get 50 visits a day before the profile links went for a year and lost most people as they could no longer find me without a bookmark. Things have improved then but haven't caught up the visitors yet but keep going regardless.

The current Chinese puzzle is how to manage to get something interesting back into life when all the projects have finished. The 50% law, where I do half the work (the starts) and others finish them, means I can never be the master of my own fate, as no one ever can be. I'm still using the law of attraction but until the next one works there's bugger all going on in the meantime.
Christmas went ok, the first without my grandma, so my father came over so haven't missed one with him yet. Then to my mother in the evening as it was the day I go anyway.
Looking for the guidance in everything I did find a photo from the 60s with a sign on it confirming another I found was indeed a proper one, and then found the editing I did on another made the words show up which had previously been illegible and too far to do again.

Since then it's been quiet as Hendon, especially as I only live yards away from it. I did go and get some very good examples of modernist houses today as it was on the list and actually dry and sunny for a change. There are a few things that could happen sooner or later, but of course the whens and ifs are out of my hands. The proper teachers all say to meditate instead of get involved in all the unreliable crap, but when like the Celestine Prophecy the crap starts to work like a machine you do wonder. It is a sign of progress though so not dismissed altogether. The belief you have to satisfy everything earthly before you can move on spiritually, as suggested by Osho, makes the most sense. If you believe in a creator if we were made with desires we were supposed to satisfy them, not ignore them. And I have rather a lot left.

So if I can return to the lists to organise myself, the current starts I have to forget about unless they finish (except when I'm too bored not to) are:

Getting the book published with my photos in it
Will I meet the woman from the TV when I make my delivery rather than by post?
Is the old sign still at the museum (opens January the 6th) which is still 40 miles away, and if so is the other one still nearby where I hope it is (no one actually told me).
Blimey, is there anything else? You can see my problem.

Otherwise I have two days to get the house ready for the new year annual visitors, so they can sit on the chairs and eat at the table. No known photo visits in reserve until I find more to take, and can only keep going and leave the door open for other results.

Snowed in, week 2 begins

The snow (day 8) made sure I had little to do and more time for the computer again, although may be gone tomorrow as it's been raining for hours. Last night some total mental midget called the radio claiming the snow wasn't due to global warming but climate change. He must have been pretty young as anyone about 50 or more will tell you snow here in December is not new, but perfectly normal. And moving the snow from early winter to late winter isn't much of a change either, it's still snow. I'm wondering how far these modern day Jesus freaks can stretch the scapegoat mentality the way Hitler did, and instead of the Jews blame every ill on climate change. It's a virus that's affected some and others not at all. I work to neutralise them one by one and honestly every soul I save with simple facts is a miracle, just like a cult buster for the routine is identical.
I say it every time, I'll stop going on about it when they do, but if I ignore it they'll think they're right.

I do suspect many would do just that, if global warming was admitted as yet another 'mistake' (we know what that really means) then they'd just switch to something else, as they feel so victimised by the world if the people can't be blamed for having more money than them and actually daring to drive cars, then the Jews will be a very easy alternative target. With a recession I just saw a big knob on Facebook picking apart the recession and blaming Zionists. Now Hitler has not died in spirit as the same now hard left (they called themselves socialists as well) have the same views but just replace the word 'Jew' with 'Zionist'. Not all correspond but a pretty high correlation, enough to assume a connection with hating either/both. People who blame others for the problems in their life are going to bully people unless they grow up, which rarely seems to happen.

The news has been extremely quiet this week, outside and around me, and am finding it hard to do any more to make anything interesting happen. There's a fixed amount of data on the internet, as items in my house, and when you've found all the items in any set, like old road signs, you can't keep looking any more. I hope things pick up soon, even though the interesting period has been something quite recent I do miss it when it goes and it all appears to return to the way it was before. I can see how what they call raising your vibration works, and don't think it will drop much once you have whatever it seems at the time. Once you've seen a new system work you don't expect it to disappear. And a week since I took a photo- I did the whole snow lot in February and besides the roads being unusable they'd all have looked the same if I had got anywhere. There was a bit more TV on today and had to wait in for the cleaner so missed a trip I intended to make when the sun was out. Then I heard the main road was down to a single lane and backed up for miles, and the cleaner was caught in it for an hour as well. So I stayed in besides a trip to replace the milk I got from a less reputable outlet that packed up two days before it was supposed to. I really haven't achieved a lot this week as there wasn't a lot left to do indoors. There aren't any friends for miles and can't go out in the evenings to the few who may have me while the roads are iced over. Of course my grandma took up two evenings a week for some years till June, but where she lives I may not have got to either as the top of a very steep hill and people have been sliding down them here for a week. This time there's really very little else I could do.

Snowed in

As it's icy and covered in snow outside there's less to report and more time to report it. Go figure. I got my neighbour's banking done for him despite the weather, second try and at least know what to do and where to go for the second one. Tomorrow's wonderful dirty job has been cancelled at least due to the weather, and have Streetviewed the next photo trip but not sure when the snow will allow it to happen. Then I have to clear downstairs ready for the visitors at new year as I've done since my friends went abroad when we took it in turns. If nothing else I can Streetview most of the day if stuck indoors, except last night when the cable went down yet again for a couple of hours.

You do get hooked on the smallest things when alone, so spent the day working through a new loaf of pretty decent bread before it needs freezing to catch the mould in time. And the dietician says it doesn't put on weight like cakes so not so guilty for doing so. Next weekend I could go 40 miles for a sign 'because it is there' although may be classed as a museum exhibit, but unlikely to get it otherwise. There was also another nearby so will check that out as well. I remember in 1996 or so I went to someone on the A3 somewhere that way to get some old train tickets for my collection, and realised when I'd left I wasn't that far from Portsmouth so carried on and did the 30 or so miles there to get some pretty good ferry tickets before they also went soon after. I collected the final batch of used tickets from the ferry office nearby after that after phoning to ask them. The Portsmouth Harbour ticket office kept me visiting regularly after the rest of the country had long stopped using the old train tickets, and missed seeing the Queen the second time in my life as I saw police swarming around and automatically walked the other way. On my return the Queen's car was there, having dropped her off and missed seeing her by a few minutes. That was after the office visit but can't have it all.

I suppose as long as the internet's connected a day at home free is never a bad thing, but can run out of appeal the third in a row which will happen soon if it stays the same outside. I could do more of the internet course tomorrow I suppose, and just get on with it till the weather breaks. And still looking for hidden treasure if any exists.

Something from nothing

This time last week I'd found an old sign on Streetview (rarest set of all) and was twiddling my thumbs waiting for the following day when I could go there and check. With nothing else to do I searched for more on photo sites, and after a few hours just at bedtime I found one a few miles away taken in June. So Monday I went there and found it, although there had been two in the parallel road that were gone a year ago when I discovered them. Later I drove the 20 miles or so to the other one to find a lamp post. A one one draw but got paid for it so in profit with something I wasn't expecting to find there.

This weekend I am lost, since the car radio was fixed on Tuesday for nothing it snowed and froze and just made quick trips to the park and shops before it got dark. I'm back on the net searches now as I can't go and take them if I don't look online. You can't drive every street in London just in case, but I did as many main roads as I could before Streetview and still drive whole towns in Surrey which doesn't take as long as you'd think. Besides being coralled into cleaning out someone's garage (I think he's scared of spiders, honestly!) on Wednesday (slightly less trouble than a funeral but no more pleasurable) the diary's clear ahead. But so are the ideas. If Roger's prediction of the next woman coming to me happens it will save my wasted effort trying to catch the impossible, like when the red triangle sign turned up at random in my messages after I'd already Streetviewed the spot. As I say, half and half, we can't make all our own results by effort.

I'm glad to say I did just get to summarise my last entry on Copenhagen on the radio, as what they did is no less than the biggest fraud on earth, as it involves every country that was there. How the most trivial amount of an equally trivial and vital gas can be blamed for something that hasn't even happened shows me how the world IQ is so damn low there are enough sheep to swallow the garbage and not see the huge holes that grow week by week until there'll be no garment left, just a few threads. Like the emperor's although you could never see these except in your imaginations.

There is the flow diagram I do which I can try and reproduce here for the unknown time ahead, thank goodness since things seemed to be guided the random has appeared to be more positive than in the toilet on average as it did previously.

Now:--------expected------> No more than usual> 1 week 2 weeks > possible book
\------better------find another sign
\ ---any unknown good news
\ ---other project completed- sign saved/completed Hertfordshire
\---->late result from past efforts

Usually this would have stuck stubbornly to the predictable line, but now signs have turned up about weekly for a year, with Streetview to help even after I'd covered most of London physically already. But the climategate emails saved me the hard work I've been putting in more and more for years saying what I knew they were up to, and now unless people believe their excuses (er, they didn't have any) we know. Things can shift in every stuck area, and even though the poor green bedwetting sheep are wetting their pants even more as Obama and his merry men haven't agreed to rule the world with an iron staff, it's their money that would be saved if all this stopped today as well as mine. So like God in the bible you have to teach your children with your greater knowledge even if they feel hard done by. I am honestly trying to save us all including the wimps and wets who can't challenge a thing they are told by anyone in authority.

So I have another test of the guidance. I really trust it now as although there's been plenty of shit to slip in since it happened I don't seem to have broken anything when I did. I do my bit, I spend hours searching online when nothing else to do, and always get other photos when I find something unless I go in the dark. I hadn't been to some places I used to know well for years as no reason or incentive, plus the congestion charge as a Berlin Wall with cameras. I'm sure Surrey has more, probably even a red triangle on some farm track, but how long would it take to find one?

Almost very interesting

Well the system nearly beat me but now know they must have engineers on round the clock as the cable went down at 12.30 am when I was writing this and just came back a few hours later, and I only came down to check as I needed to play a couple of daily quizzes I'm in this month. Nice to get a decent result on the internet for a change. I'd just written that the first step in world government would be when they agreed a deal at Copenhagen as it would set a precedent of the first legally binding law worldwide. It didn't happen but when it does they will then be able to have a tax that operates independently of who we elect. Very 1984.

Secondly the agreement they made would have made me pee my pants laughing had 99% of the media and half the world not actually swallowed it. They have 'agreed to keep world temperatures down by 2''. Now that is like the Mafia, who I mentioned yesterday and clearly now running the UN. They have a very similar deal, pay us weekly and we won't wreck your building. Now in 30, 60, and even 90 years each generation will see the figures and say 'Wasn't Barack Obama a saint as temperatures haven't gone up 2' '. Well Sherlock, you know why? Yes, because they weren't going to. Now if I say (as the rival messiah) the sun will rise tomorrow will that make me a saint as well? Grow up world and see the bullshit.

Meanwhile the real power lies with each individual to avoid any of the crap life sends us. Until they physically lock us up the bright can dodge and swerve as much oppression as possible, and my next prediction is that it will soon become an offence worldwide to deny global warming, and no, that is not a joke. They can make any damn law they like and believe me this is just the start of it.
So I'm up an hour later than I should be but 'business as usual'. Sod all to do tomorrow and beyond, and would really like more than making the best of nothing, housework, snow and ice, phoning dubious people and more. The next test (also inspired by a message I just received mirroring my own type of experiences) is to see how the guidance covers everything, not just the active periods. It has to technically cover every moment and a challenge to see how. I may for instance expect tomorrow to lack every single element of possible interest, think of no more when it actually arrives, and something happens to change it.

So until I'm either employed by a media outlet or arrested for my anti-establishment essays I'll be writing it all here. Technically if you detach from the hype then analysing simple data will tell every person on earth the same thing:

Atmosphere- very large.
CO2- under 0.1%
Our contribution- 3%

These figures are not in dispute, just the suppositions from them. Judge the tree by the fruit, when they announced not the current figures but 'predicted' ones, what was the result? Huge taxes. The sole result of the story of global warming has been to rob us and restrict third world expansion. That is not science but dictatorship. And more figures:

Sea level rise in the last 100 years- 8 inches
Predicted sea level rise for next 100 (multiple choice)
a) Ten feet
b) 12 inches
c) 100 inches
d) 2 feet

I obviously know these are the official figures and which one is correct, but the morons who call the radio about what the heck will happen to the Pacific islands I guarantee haven't a clue.

Lack of education is the real disease, that opens the door to the gullible and those who take advantage of the masses who are. Don't be a sheep, don't be a follower, look up the facts!

Telling the truth

Before I go to bed I must do this, it winds me down and whatever may have gone round my head there can come out and bother all of you instead. I got out to the park before the snow was too bad today, took some photos, bought enough supplies for a few days and came home. I did also nip out later as it was a massive blizzard, made a video and then sent the radio an email as they wanted weather reports and they put the details on air. Lots of views and comments, very useful. What's the point doing the work when hardly anyone knows about it?

I had the rest of the day to keep myself amused with barely any evening (or daytime) TV worth watching, something that kept me occupied half the day before I got the internet. Looking back on the week it's been a bit of everything, and looking for the guidance see it as challenging me with most types of problem so I could get used to dealing with them. The one reward (in hand) was a direction sign on the doorstep, although lost a really rare one due to the delay between Streetview and the reality of the present. I can run out of things to look for on the internet, jobs to do at home and basically everything if it gets dark at 4 and snowed in at night. Freedom is half the job but can't do it all yourself to fill it.

Just looking ahead to what could happen, I am still now waiting to be published in a book sooner or later (photos anyhow), a final sign restoration decision, and if anything else can't think of it. And the Youtube guru just explained how universal consciousness is hidden by mental activity so when that is cleared then everyone experiences the same thing described by Buddha. You can't do it by will as the mind is the will, so need indirect practices of any type to divert the mind until it clears enough to see the peace behind it. Something I've never seen after 12 years of lessons and practice but until recently hardly anyone else seemed to either.
I have however tuned into (before reading it) the system of the Celestine Prophecy, as I am now for the first time able to sense good things coming to me, and possibly even draw them to me. Like my clairvoyance I don't challenge any phenomena as clearly natural and expect them to work rather than try and analyse anything.

I have seen rewards beyond those seen for a long time, gradually reaching higher levels although some way to go. I have my list as requested, so when you organise the aims and direct yourself towards them you can clearly see when you tick them off. Now I did no more to get the red triangle sign than join a group that collects them so get informed by those who know me when they find one locally, and not at all by others. But I still find them eventually by searching and can't do them all myself as Streetview can't see them all. Ahead of that I'm hoping to keep building on the power/energy so what seem closer to miracles start happening and become normal. Just like my weights I can do a lot more with the same amount of effort each time, so see more miracles happening implying they can get more and more unlikely ones to happen. One I am waiting on (something I don't even really need but where I feel I should be) would be like your 'M Phil' level of success in attraction (although manipulation of energy is another way of seeing it work), and each goal will show me how far I've got.

Of course having a woman still either needs me to be able to do more that they usually like doing, unless I find one who doesn't. I can't become something I'm not and shouldn't have to, as it's quite different to reform a criminal and a phobic. I'm not hurting anyone and actually don't give a damn if I never do any of those things again as if I liked them that much I wouldn't be phobic about them. That is logical, why would you avoid anything if it was pleasant? I'd just be happy with a community of local people I could see and mix with around, and you don't get that in London, and have to rely on your family. But that's on the list as well and I would think once you find the formula should work for most things.

Look at global warming. I was killing myself researching and arguing with the believers to try and win back their souls, just like cult breaking. In fact the behaviour is identical. Believers are no different from any other, and need every possible method to break each one by one. And then what happened? Every piece of cheating I inferred from my own research came out as it was there all the time. Copenhagen is like having a fundraiser for square wheels or reviving the dead. They know it in their hearts and are really flogging a dead horse now regardless of the empty rhetoric. They are beaten, they know it, and now more about how they can disappear quietly without openly admitting defeat. Pretending they can't come to an agreement would be a good start, as by eventually abandoning all attempts to do whatever they say they're trying to do because they can't get the wogs to agree (their words, potentially, not mine) would be a good enough getout clause as any other without admitting they were wrong.

There is (in this dimension anyway) only one truth, and you can't have a variety to suit your policies whatever you say. In the end you'll either run out of time or the truth will show itself and wipe out the alternatives. Making up god is the longest one that can last as that's basically saying 'Here's a theory with no data or evidence but we still say it's right'. Most people just ignore them now as they don't do any harm really and can believe it if it makes them happy. But other shit they shove down our throats is not harmless and if you pretend unlimited immigration and overpopulation is OK, muslims don't kill their own, black people don't knife more people than anyone in the country etc, then it will still be true, but you'll be as bad as they are. If you protect evil with a lie then you are part of that evil, in British law then you are guilty of it as well as a secondary party. Just let people see what is there as saying it isn't won't get rid of the smell in the room when it is. You can't wish away a hidden pile of cat shit, you have to first admit it's there and then clean it up. Same with all the other issues the left (for it is they who currently deny them all) want the world to believe don't exist and the ones they want us to that really don't. I was taught not to lie, make personal remarks or kick my nanny by the age of three and is not something anyone else can't learn even when they've strayed too far to the other side.

While I'm here...

A successful day I can announce. The car radio was a simple earthing, saving me an arm and part of a kidney on a replacement, and then a possible reversal of a decision to remove an old sign after my reply. I am (and others) justifiably pissed off missing what may have been a 'SLOW MAJOR ROAD AHEAD' sign not too far from me, but that's the game when collecting anything that's beyond it's natural or official life. And as far as I know possibly the only one that was not remade but dropped entirely.
Tomorrow is boring city Arizona potentially, if I am called to ex-grandma's to let in the insurance man after the roof failed. It depends if he comes early or late whether it's my shift, so not certain. Then I can do whatever I like, having gone from Richmond to Hammersmith, then Oakwood and then home to Kingsbury yesterday. Today I wasn't imagining it got dark 20 minutes later than a week ago in the same weather as my father noticed it as well, and the camera doesn't lie as I went to the nearby park after the radio was fixed and took photos till almost 4pm. Last week 3.30 was it. I have the proof.

So I just get on with it and as taught take the rough and smooth as equally as I can, as eventually we are meant to adjust our reactions to both back to zero either way. Be unmoved and the peace within shall prevail. If I get that far I'll become a saint, literally, by the eastern definition. That is a mahatma as their soul has expanded beyond that they were born with. I am therefore being forced to have the patience of a saint, and yesterday was rewarded by an extremely unlikely direction sign before the ultimate disappointment of losing one so rare the next known are 140+ miles away. My own inspiration tends to be extensions of existing projects that just take a jump to another level or direction when worn out.

So I've been working pretty hard, more to come possibly, and at least the big ones are out of the way and cost me almost nothing (the wheel cover fell off the car so had to get a new set but very cheap). I never know what's going to happen next, there is still this random chance of getting what I need at the time which has never happened till this year, and even when I think it may have run out in a particular area. Sometimes it's my own thoughts which are guided, web searches that fill idle evenings can take hours and suddenly strike gold, like when I was metal detecting (minus the gold though).

The same with names from the past except so far none have done more than see me once and return to the ends of the earth. So many total twats and wankers have no trouble meeting a partner and I know I can't be quite that bad and never get half way there. I blamed my height for many years until I saw men about the same size doing OK, and also realised I had plenty in the past but could never keep them long enough to matter. No agoraphobia then either, I went anywhere and did anything so that didn't keep them either, I held in my farts, didn't swear, paid for them most of the time, made them laugh, etc etc, and they still dumped me serially. I didn't try anything kinky (not for months anyway when I knew I'd stand a chance), spit, pick my nose, pick my arse, bathed frequently enough, changed the subject every so often, listened a lot, was nice to their parents, and possibly besides scratching and fidgeting (I'm only human) was pretty average besides my height which is not exactly unusual. I am lost as to the constant failure from the age of 15 when her mother made her stop seeing me, to the one at 20 with no sense of humour, the communist at 18, the one who emigrated within a week at 32, the one at 25 who kept going back to her ex and wouldn't go past first base (if I've learnt them correctly), a few who lived about 70 miles away and couldn't keep travelling, and the one I liked but couldn't be bothered to do the 40 or so miles after the others who were even further, ie the only one who actually liked me back.

So in 49 years more or less (I was after someone in my class at about 3 so started early), I reckon two mutual chances, one stopped by her mother and the other by me as it's easier to be put off when younger and still have hopes of choice. Am I really that hard to tolerate?

Holes in one or bogies?

Another day passes and will discover tomorrow if another very rare sign is indeed in existence. Other than that it's no business as usual, but all will be fine if tomorrow is a success. Every now and then I see something fall into place where it should be, like the string of emails in today's paper demonstrating how the crooks at the university of East Anglia who removed tree ring data and the high temperatures already experienced around 1100 as it would 'seriously water down the message'. No shit Sherlock. Justice to be seen to be done at last? We will see.

No other plans besides taking the car radio in to be robbed and more sorting at late grandma's house this week. I think a few miracles probably have happened recently, most of all the red triangle sign finally turning up last week. I didn't search for it (well I did but wasn't visible online so couldn't actually find it that way) and someone just happened to see it on a route they'd always used as I raised the subject. Getting the climategate emails is something of a miracle as although anyone who looks can find the alternative (ie honest) climate figures no one dared print them till they were proved to be the true ones this way. Now Tiger Woods' marketing career is down the toilet he ought to be brought in to handle the global warming crisis. In a few weeks they'd be paying the money back in our bank accounts with apologies.

On the infidelity front I am struggling on the whys of anyone doing it. I have always settled for onw woman when no others were better. Now if no others are better and I've actually got the one who is better then why would I want anyone else as well? Answers on a postcard please. It's like getting bored with your house and wanting to live in different ones a couple of days a week. I know it's common but seriously weird. Now if one woman is good in one way but not others that's a reason to wait for one who isn't, but maybe some people are impatient, or just plain stupid.
I am running out of material but little else to do with the two boring snooker players about to outbore each other on TV in a minute when Ding Junhui wins again as if anyone actually cares. Having watched the snooker since Pot Black in the early 70s things have changed a lot and not for the better. Making them play round the world means most retire at 40 and you lose every decent player once you get used to them, apart from the once boring Steve Davis.

Not a lot else to report, I have my sweets and chocolates for the next couple of weeks but have to ration them, the gym was closed when I got there, which happens randomly especially on Sundays and basically a few quid down the toilet as I can't make it up another day in the week. The usual reason in the past (since they got this manager) was 'there weren't enough people there'. If that was a valid excuse Ireland would have been closed years ago. Goodnight.

Inspiration required

My current task, to convert potential freedom to something interesting. I've done what I had to do today (get a quite expensive memory card fixed for nothing on my camera) and have basically cleared all the expansive vista of shit from the past week and in my opinion did pretty well. The last time it was clear plenty arrived to keep me busy, and one of those times other people have to be as much responsible as me. I've also got the car radio (which I have to pay for) to fix on Tuesday so I can listen to more than one station and that's it.

If the next decade of my life (a month ahead roughly) means dropping the bar even lower for marriage material I may be after blokes at this rate. No, that won't happen but some of the women may resemble them... I mean we all need to eat but won't eat anything even if good for us. Of course we'd die without food so if I had to eat some creepy crawlies to stay alive I probably would, but won't die if I don't share my life with one. And I had another offer, but as women turn down 80% (or more) of offers to them I'm entitled to turn down 20% of the ones I get. Not even a road test here unless it comes gift wrapped.

Tomorrow is the beginning of my new project, fill the space and time. No photos as by the time the cleaner arrives it'll almost be dark, but the one thing I should do is phone the only woman I like who stood by me intermittently for over 30 years before dropping me like most of the others. A final ending there. That's a start anyway, and presumably Streetviewing will continue regardless until every road is covered (pretty close already). Despite the latest and best sign being invisible on it. But quite a few were not and damn useful to have had. Now the other thread that can be tapped (it happens now and again) is miracles. Rather than spread it so wide, I'll go for one type, and a very rare one, people changing their minds.

Now technically I could write another article on this. It does happen sometimes, especially in politics, but not for personal or work decisions. Even I don't very much. Not that I make any that affect other people so rarely had the need to be persuaded. If I was a lot of the time unless the person was a criminal or thereabouts I may give in just to do my bit as a saint. Giving up your own pride to help someone who needs it is the act of a saint as how many times has it happened to you? Not many I'd guess. I have a list of arseholes and twats who have stitched me up badly in the last few years, and the ones I know would be more likely to 'walk up the Strand with their cock/alternative in their hand' (to quote an old rugby song) than swallow their pride and apologise or equivalent.

And have I come across (and still do) some prizewinners. Twat of the century level. If I didn't value my life I'd like to name each one and why here, but those things have a way of coming back and biting you, but basically they:

Called me every name under the sun after I did them a favour and never spoke to me again.
Set me up to wreck my plan to replace an old sign and then insulted me for it.
Pretended he'd fix an old sign and then planned to remove it after I said where it was.
Wasted three of my newspaper interviews.
Sacked me from a voluntary position after 5 hard working years for a reason created to do so.
Wrote a parking ticket after I asked if it was OK to park where I did (having paid for a ticket).

I'm sure there are others but that's a standard selection. That is the reason some put curses on people as there's no other legal way to get revenge, but following Buddhism I see it as their lower nature and move on. I don't think they'll get any karma as sadists always seem to succeed, but it's not my job to reform anyone, that's what miracles are for.

Same as bloody usual

The Celestine Prophecy tells us once the guidance is there we must look for it in everything. So all the stress I've had this week (some shared here and more) was dealt with where possible and dropped. It's now passed and I've come out the other side. I have to take the memory card to the shop tomorrow with some ID as the receipt has vanished, and hope to get a new one and otherwise job done.
I'm not usually good with stress, but if you either crack up or cope I decided to deal with it and coped. The prophecy says look for the message and that was mine. No more for a while now please.

Ahead I see no more, but that's normal, including lack of plans and ideas, and will just wait till the time comes. I've emailed letters to the two local papers about the council removing the last of an old sign design and if one publishes I may have a chance. These (insert bad word here) need to be fought to every last cause or they'll walk all over us. I'll never show anyone in the council where one is again now, I tried and was confirmed to be suspicious. The concepts of flexibility and discretions simply don't exist when most people are promoted beyond their capabilities. So we can't trust or rely on any of them as they are like the crocodile, programmed to destroy their prey, ie the general public.

So, life is still partly as per usual and partly a mystery. I expect most ahead to be as before, but that does now include some of interest as well as the normal routine. There is definitely a frequency for each area in life, or my electrical things couldn't all pack up at once on more than one occasion. Two women in a couple of days in 2002 after a few blank years, etc etc. Last week was testing my strength and now seems to be over, so hopefully something positive will come next as I've had my initiation and probably passed it so no need for more of the same.

Get thee to Copenhagen

I'm still being tested, but to see how the ordinary everyday shit we all get can be dealt with without any help. I had a lot but think I got through OK. The arsehole at the county council just told me after all my requests he was simply removing the old sign I asked them to paint. Fucking bastards these officials are, I'm never wasting my time with one again. None want to help, they do something if they think they have to. I've asked my little online groups to help and also contacting the press but one thing little Hitlers do is make their minds up finally. I can't think of more than one occasion that hasn't happened, and then maybe the decision wasn't as final as it looked at the time. And that was a bloody big one so if any have to change their mind his was the most important. The others are just annoying, that was my whole career.

So having survived the date, and now apparently in a position where she appears to want nothing or marriage (why do people try and force me to extremes?) where I'd give it at least a year like most sensible people. But it went OK otherwise and we did get to talk about the total lack of any relationship despite everyone else around expecting it to happen. My car radio is up the shoot, and no guarantee or clue how many figures it will cost. I may just put in an old one except the space is twice the size of any other radio. The camera memory card is supposed to be under guarantee, although I can't find the receipt they seem not to mind.
Tomorrow I may try another place for a car radio, go and get a football programme for someone if they're open (and the sign in daylight) or something else if not possible. But I'm free, the arrangement to tidy at my late grandma's being cancelled although I had to do my part but went tonight. The fixed roof was not fixed and flooded the study, and is now pissing down before the builder arrives tomorrow.

So I've passed through a storm and come out in one piece, and if the sign (probably unique now) is removed I've got the photos so sod them. Had I said nothing it would still be there in another 50 years but the chance of seeing it like new was almost worth the risk. Just confirmed never mess with the enemy. No more plans really. The photo book may be out this month, but when someone 'hopes it will be...' I'd give it three. Or maybe six. Meanwhile Copenhagen continues, they have found a solution to burning fossil fuel, they're burning our money now instead.

The Copenhagen Summit

It's a shame so few people are going to read this, and can only hope the message is echoed in many blogs and articles worldwide. The Copenhagen summit is indeed the most important meeting this century, as our whole way of life, freedoms and the truth itself is at stake.
If they find any agreement at all, basically our money will instantly buy less and our lives gradually driven back to pre-industrial standards. Power cuts have already been predicted by the UK government's agencies as a result of existing 'green' policies, and if even more tax is imposed on the west these should extend across continents.

Now the general public have seen the machinations behind the global warming production, nothing further should be done in its name until the science is checked (as it now is being, but says will take up to three years while our pockets will continue to be picked) as basically all the money is being taken on false pretences. And love him or hate him David Icke saw this one coming as announced a few minutes ago on the news, Barack Obama is about to change the law to override their parliament to get his global warming laws through the senate. This means he is legally going to do something which is theoretically impossible under the US constitution (something I don't know a lot about here admittedly) but with my own (degree level) knowledge of constitutional law would have thought no US constitution would allow. If not then they may as well flush their constitution down the toilet.

So those democrats (small d obviously) in The States who said not to worry about Cap and Trade as the senate would never pass it have seen the insidious methods the global warming monster will use to push aside everything in its way. And like the anti-terrorism laws before it, all claim to remove our rights for our own safety, as David Icke said would happen many years before. But the bottom line is the foundation of all life which they can't beat, the truth. Once the true figures creep out under the smokescreens clearly produced by the IPCC sponsored goons, and in 50 and 100 years when most of us are gone the new generations, looking at frozen poles, glaciers, polar bears and normal average temperatures (what is normal again?) it will be over. But the longer it takes the more wind farms, solar panels and other expensive wastes of space will be in place, costing us double for our energy (UK wholesale gas prices have halved while prices we pay remain the same) and ever more. The leaked emails were the lifeline the truth needed to get the figures from the shade of the internet, where people have to decide to go and look, to the TVs where everyone sees them whether they want to or not.

So Copenhagen is basically the turning point of world civilisation. What is decided will ascertain whether life around the world is based on domination, dictatorship, totalitarianism and most of all lies, or will truth win the day? In two weeks the verdict will be out. And if life had any justice so would be President Obama.

A bit of a mystery

Forthcoming events have always cast a cloud over my life unless something else is distracting me, and if my mind wonders I'll be worrying about Tuesday until it's over. My nature and outside my control. Otherwise it's been very quiet, the work was cancelled on Saturday and pissing with rain so got my paperwork done and then fiddled about till I went to the gym. No plans either so like every other event and plan before half is my work and half is from outside. The guidance must now deal with what causes the stress and somehow make me immune from more and more or any potential problem will get me every time.

Other than that little is happening in the present, and being December can quickly look back and say I've done more ths year than about the last three. Collecting old road signs has got me in a 30 mile circle I hadn't explored for some years. The new car also makes it easier although the radio gave out and just hope it's under guarantee as has to go back on Tuesday. Better than the car packing up anyway. I do need some more inspiration, I've completed a major mission but life has to follow and be used.
Tomorrow is a blank slate altogether, as is most of the week really. That's the rest of the mystery but once the 'date' (it's not as she's really showing no interest in more than my car and where it can take her) is over I shouldn't really care.

So the guidance is being tested now to see whether it can also drag me from the depths as well as point me to the highs. If you fall then Buddha was right that all the good and bad cancel out and you must stop being affected by both. If anyone can truly claim that I'd be very surprised but part of the teaching. I'll go for any percentage improvement, 100% being a miracle.
If anyone knows where the link is for 'add instant blog reactions' let me know, it comes up every now and then but never when I need to activate it. Not very good marketing.

I've done it!

The more time passes, despite what appear to be gaps, the guidance continues, and I seem to almost feel when something is close as well, besides having predictive dreams. From a wild goose chase to a misidentified sign on Saturday I made two trips to mop up the private signs around Regents Park, having already done the ones actually in it I discovered they were in the surrounding roads as well as I checked when I knew I'd be there last weekend. After then bumping into my mum's incredibly sexy neighbour for the third time while shopping I carried a couple of stone of bags home, and was absolutely knackered.
Then I looked in my messages and had a link for a sign someone had found half an hour from me, and it was actually a genuine one with the red triangle on top.

I have one, also in London, but with an edge missing, this had no picture (many text only panels had them as well) but had been fully restored and looked like new. There you go, it can happen sometimes. And just for those with a little knowledge of these phenomena, I'd done some dowsing on a map drawn on a piece of paper in case that could focus me to where the sign could be, as I was trained with cards and other items, and wrote a few names, and just one in large capitals, for no reason other than it seemed to come to me, "BARNET". I'd totally forgotten this as it was a few weeks ago, and looked back a few pages in the notebook and there it was, exactly where it was in reality. What trick will I pull next I wonder? Another one, and maybe a woman as well?

Work tomorrow (1 session anyway) and then a normal weekend, but one less thing to search or hope for. I actually checked the same road on Streetview already but had a tree covering the sign which has been cut down now, and couldn't see it. Meanwhile I'm just keeping busy, doing my shopping (christmas cards today), and getting jobs done in the house. Then the ridiculous Copenhagen summit next week, the greatest organised crime in the history of the world, and I suspect the wind's been taken out of their sails. Any honest and intelligent person can't now accept any of the guff we've been fed since Michael Mann invented the theory based on a false computer model, and with Al Gore managed to convince half the world to tax their citizens and drive them back to the stone age 'because they said so'.

Global warming has operated as an intelligence test for the world, and many people failed but more have passed, given the general opinion of the ordinary guys who call the radio with no axe to grind and most respectable journalists who get paid to disagree with the establishment if they do, not sacked. And my final point, to answer a typical twat on the radio, is that no one has to be a scientist to have an opinion, that is what a jury does, and the IPCC. They rely on scientists to make their own minds up and once the scientists drop the BS and start telling the truth there won't even be a case left to hear.

Agoraphobia day!

Although I rarely mention it now as I rarely go where requested, I was cheated into accepting another evening in a not-local pub next week. Luckily the same person got me to survive an evening in another one recently so have the precedent, and although I could probably cope with a local one instead most have long since become blocks of flats so hardly any actually on the doorstep without either thugs or old miseries. My tablets are required to take the edge off the day, but may dwell on it on and off the whole time before it comes next week, that is almost as bad as the event as you can't live normally with a stone in your shoe.

Otherwise I've been out and about as it suits me, I took a lot (more remaining though) of private signs in Regents Park yesterday, as although they are not official have an old set just like the others in style and quite a few have been left unlike elsewhere. It's been raining again all day so scanned in the final photos and now have quite a few of our old cars and even half an old direction sign from before I was born. I must do the supermarket tomorrow or I'll run out of food, and beyond that is a mystery. If something else better takes my attention it can wipe out any concern about the pub, but that is outside my control if it does.

My other projects are so uncertain or personal they can't be mentioned here, but none are likely to happen for weeks at the earliest so can't expect any of them to do the job. My finances will be changing soon (for the better overall but not quite as reliable), I have also started laser treatment on my hair as the FDA in America have approved it with good results and a twentieth the price of having it done privately. That takes months before showing any results so just apply it three times a week and leave it alone otherwise and forget about it. The long term plan is to find another friend locally, male. female or both, and one not more trouble than being on my own. I've never looked for a friend in my life, they were just there. This is a first. Facebook has been useless so far, the one friend had just moved abroad after being round the corner (relatively) for years, and the latest fuckers just ignored my messages.
One who didn't although didn't remember me either suddenly invited me over, I replied when and she never answered. She is single but clearly for good reasons. It's like I'm tuned for 'weird' so like a magnet instead of picking up iron pick up weird people and repel the others.

But I must try and remain positive in all this, see there must still be guidance in it all and maybe the pub visit may ultimately lead to a leg over situation. Needless to say the woman is incredibly attractive or I'd just have sidestepped the whole thing, but I can't start fiddling around when crumpet is involved however unlikely the chances are of success. I'd understand if a woman didn't like going out but I've been there myself so would. I won't do nothing, but if she wants to go to a pub would like some say in which one, even though all mine have been demolished. She used to have a car so could come over when she wanted as well, but finances put a stop to that and if she comes over now needs arranging and me going to collect her and take her home. That's not a problem but means she can't just come and go as she pleases as she doesn't like being at home much herself.

So, a small turd hits the fan as they must from time to time, and only for me to deal with now or never. I know that's the reason and step one is to forget about it unless it comes to me, in which case I let the thought pass, till next week. Having something else to do will help and no idea what that would be.

No idea

A week has passed without an entry, and hardly surprised as nothing at all has happened since a week ago. And no particular reason it should any time this week or year for that matter. Besides raining most of the week I've just made a few videos, including one of The Bill when I drove into their location set today and had the still camera with me which does short videos as well.
Besides finding an old sign I found outside a block of flats was indeed an official type however rare there hasn't been anything else in the way of news either. I dread to think what I was like in the 70s considering how many people I find I last saw then ignore my messages. There aren't many left to find now and only actually met two since I started looking.

The next trip is the private signs around Regents Park as only had a few till now, nothing special but in the old style with totally different designs. I have sent off another article, based around a specific incident in my own life that showed me how easily most people become Napoleon when given a little power. That showed me the rules on how to exercise power and naturally an article followed. But if everything's still guided last week did give me a nice rest and each previous week hadn't had any plans but was sorted out each day when they came. Days on end with no human contact have their effect but that would be the same for most people. Until I can find someone I can see regularly who's actually worth it that's not going to change.

So although there is a small system the couple of possibilities are weeks or more ahead and can't think of any in advance as I've done my bit were required and now have to forget about them all. Besides shit and unnecssary jobs like the dentist (why go every 6 months as they say so?) I've got all the rest out of the way. I've got my therapy forms to fill in tomorrow which is not much but has to be done. But today I was told about one nearby house to take and found a decent railway bridge with low wall with amazing views next to it, and then saw them filming The Bill on the way back. So that's how a blank day can work out with absolutely no input from yourself. So that was guided, and that needs to carry on somehow.

Monday's summary

It's too early to go to bed and nothing left to look up online so here I am. If the system's working despite nothing known or new something will occur. I'm more or less busy till Thursday now so no need for many plans besides tomorrow later on when I can fart about as I please. A 30 mile trip Wednesday and the gym covers that, and then who knows. So if the system says every moment is guided then so is this, and I just have to look for why.

Maybe it's to get me to read something here after this, or think of something I wouldn't have otherwise. That's the sort of indirect lateral thinking you need to develop and see more and more in the apparent gaps. On Facebook (there, the one place I have forgotten to visit till now, first job done) four women from the 70s/almost ignored me last week, I rarely find so many in one go now and in order one) didn't like me then either, two) doesn't remember me, three) thought I was a twat, and four) even I don't remember what or who now.
Look for new people? I could write a book let alone an entry. Suffice to say suitable new friends are maybe 1 in 1000 or more. I met a handful over my lifetime and stuck with them for decades. Since school and regular holidays, which provided them plus the children of my parents' friends I've barely met one new one despite regular courses and groups. No idea why, just how it happened.

I did meet one girlfriend online in 2002 but her own problems stopped that short. Otherwise I either meet attractive women who run a while or marginally interesting people amongst generally boring groups I never see outside more than once or twice. The few right people click, I meet many online but all way too far to see more than once when they come to London for some reason. I don't travel now (as any regular will know) and even if I did you can't have a regular friend more than 20 miles away, mine have vanished when moved the other side of London before. I'd done the groundwork on all the others already and whatever split us up before may be fixable.

Is there a reason to be on my own? Maybe if temporary as I get a heck of a lot done. I've also learnt a lot to do without anyone else around but why have to make the best of it for the rest of time? Even a marriage/partnership of convenience would be an improvement now, but the calibre of possibilities, either mentally backward or ill or both is more trouble than it would be worth, even if attractive. Unless I had a palace where you could lose someone much of the time we'd be on top of each other and I suppose if you sleep with a woman she'd expect you to take her out as well even if you agreed it was only out of desperation? If a man (not just me) would drop his standards after 50 years because it was that or nothing don't any women? Or are all women the right sort of age all with someone unless mental? I suspect that is the case, although not necessarily abroad as I meet some lovely women elsewhere online. A few are potty as well but at least not every single one.

So more questions than answers on that one, but may find one once I've started. At least I can go to bed now. Amen.

A low carbon story

I am learning how to live within what appears to be guidance, as despite it working on many projects there are still huge gaps, and the rule is to look for the guidance in the apparent space. Well today the place with the old sign closed early and may have to go on Wednesday, which is about 30 miles from me. Better than not but a pain nonetheless. Other projects are moving on nicely but weeks or more from completion so can't focus on those seeds still growing slowly so have to find interest in the present. Last weekend I ran out of material and found a sign after a couple of hours online, but can't rely on them for everything.

So the week ahead has been possibly altered somewhat. Tomorrow will be a routine photo trip presumably, and haircut the next day, and Wednesday probably get the sign fitted. There was football on the same night but can't be in both places at once and the football is on again. And I think just after my last entry (certainly when I read the papers) the powers that be have been caught adjusting the figures on global warming. Were it not for the internet this would have been impossible without breaking in but now it's not so easy to hide your tracks. I hope another section of society has been lost from sitting on the fence, as it's so bloody obvious the climate can't rely both on CO2 to drive it, and the piddling (3%) amount we are responsible for. Common sense seems to have been suspended by (41% by our first survey) of the population, and hopefully woken up a few more from their sleep of pure idiotic gullibility. Crooks are crooks and the fact some are in authority is a better reason to expect it than not.

I expect little more but always hope for it, I have collected a lot this year already and raised my level somewhat, and if the book comes out with my photos in it will be more so. But again, not for weeks so can't use it now. Last week I didn't speak to a single person three days flat, and with no grandma may be a regular occurence. I saw today they want to charge for Facebook, that'll remove another social route but may have done all I can on it since the latest batch of new arrivals ignored me in unison. They were all from the 70s, fuck knows what I must have been like to alienate so many women but that hasn't changed 30-40 years later. I only want one or two people I can see locally again, I always have till not long ago but people move and have their own families so all dried up now. But if guided now I've seen other problems solving themselves one by one, so currently seems to be working its way along them all. And writing it all down here always helps organise my mind so even if no one reads it I'd be doing it somehow as I can see all my situation in one place.

I hope tomorrow and beyond brings more global warming revelations as it may finally poke a hole in the balloon that's grown so big the TV and radio can't go an hour without getting it in.

Low carbon economy means basically going to Greece, not knowing the language so you can't read the signs, understand the people and basically either learn a new alphabet and country from scratch or get totally lost. Then you get put in a factory where you can't understand the job or instructions, and someone's preaching to you through a speaker but of course it makes no sense at all. Every so often they slip a little English in, not enough to make sense but to gove the impression of what the job entails. But you never quite get it.
So then you go to sleep and start dreaming with bits of Greek slipped in as it's now all around you. Of course in the dream a little seems to make sense, but when you wake up it's all gone and all you understand the boss shouting at you is 'low carbon economy'. The next step is to ring up one of the clairvoyants who advertise, and see if they can see into the problem. One says they have your spirit guide and you should change your shoes as your footprint is too big. You give her the sack on the spot and try something new.

You then go to the cinema to watch the latest low carbon film, it's on a black screen, some kind of symbolism, but it's in bloody Greek again and because it's in black and white the images keep fading in and out on the black screen. More symbolism of course but only the gods can understand it, well the Greek gods anyway. Alcohol could be the key, so try and get drunk, previously setting the intention for a low carbon hangover. Alka Seltzer is banned there as it produces too much CO2 so another dead end. In the end Al Gore sells you his new bible, which is the bible of world carbon neutrality. In the beginning was the word. Money. Money can be made of paper so if you burn it it releases CO2, so don't burn money, give it to him. Then your industry will be low carbon and they all live happily ever after.

Do you understand it now? No? Me neither.

A whole week

The week was a challenge, I needed a rest and had absolutely no plans but decided what to do as it happened. That ended the week with a local video, shopping in Golders Green and locally and scanning as many photos in as I could find. And someone noticed my room needed tidying on Youtube which has also just been done. I also found 4 more people on Facebook and guess what, not one has replied. Busy or total wankers? I'll leave that to you. The global warming racket is heating up (pun intended) with reports flooding in (pun intended again) of predictions of 6 degree increases (until the woman was interviewed and said it may not be by the end of the century as reported) and similar CO2-temperature correlations that simply can't be demonstrated outside the simplistic mind of the authorities who want it to be true to rob us blind.

I hope the more nonsensical the claims and higher the taxes eventually someone more important than me will come out and put a stop to this. Before the internet no one could check the crap we were told by the authorities, now the scientists banned from the media (except a few who get lucky) publish their findings here. One report from Philip Stott or Nils-Axel Morner alone would rip their story to shreds and leave no leg standing for the ridiculous nonsense they try and make us accept. I've also studied the formulas for soviet propaganda and they simply use them now as if the place still existed. The location may have changed but the methods are no different.
I hear they are almost ready to turn on the large hadron collider after its latest disaster, but in the small print it may take a year to reach full speed, partly as it was broken and partly they're shit scared. If that goes tits up it may affect the climate a lot more than simple car usage.

Unless parcels are delivered on Saturdays (oh yes, and George Michael likes women) there won't be a sign repaired this weekend. I just hope the damn thing comes at all as I've paid for it already. Various business projects are moving along gradually as well, closer to completion but a minimum of weeks ahead for the first one. Until then I haven't a clue what else could happen, I got a message two more famous old signs had just been removed from Aldwych, proving how vital my project is to get photos of every one while it's still here. I was even offered one but prefer them where they were meant to be put. So it has become a bit boring, I didn't speak to a single person face to face for three days, and if you think no sex is bad then add that to the mix for worse. I'm just hoping an old friend will return from the dead online as it's a lot easier to catch up than start from scratch.

I'm working tomorrow before the gym, and got a haircut for Tuesday at last, and that's about it so far. A couple of probable routine photo trips for the weekend and any more will be a surprise. And finally may actually have some photos published in a book for charity by the end of the year. That'll help.

Mafia wars in reality

Something I've been aware of for a long time is however powerful or apparently qualified a person is they seem to have huge holes in their intelligence. Mine were due to lack of knowledge and experience, and after many years of both, plus almost as many of training believe there are no longer any. This to me seems normal, yet when seemingly bright and qualified people miss the bleedin' obvious it makes me wonder how few people actually develop a blanket awareness or remain specialists but not able to comprehend apparently simple things for others?

If I don't understand something I have a strategy to learn, and that leads to a termination of opinions on a subject to an awareness what an answer is, the difference between belief and faith and knowledge. I and thank goodness many others (but still not enough) can easily scratch the surface of the political global warming soviet-style propaganda (all catchphrases and sanctions with no actual substance behind it) yet enough people fall for it who ought to know better. This applies to every other seemingly true situation that falls under close scrutiny, and those that seem confusing as well. There is a logical series of steps I was taught from college which anyone can use, and now with the internet can quickly fill any required gaps if uncertain until filled. I still don't know if I'm one of few or just many pretend they don't understand to rip people off.

I spent most of my time on photography this week, videos and scanning old stuff in when it gets dark early. It would be really nice to punctuate my activities with face to face conversation but can't have it all. I'm also searching more people on Facebook, and found two who haven't replied. Nothing new there. Not one council I enquired about old signs have either so pretty typical. Tomorrow is a mystery, there's plenty of paperwork when it really fizzles out and may well end up doing some. I used all my own resources this week so far but is always nice when others join in, like the Surrey sign that was found last weekend. The red sign triangle hasn't arrived yet and need it by Saturday if I can fit in on Sunday when someone's there. 50-50 I think. And some twat in a newspaper just predicted temperatures will rise by the maximum 6'. Now maybe the extreme bullshit level will shake many more people to awaken as such a claim is not one requiring an IQ of 150 to doubt, but a brain full stop. They know temperatures will rise by 6' after they've risen .4' till 1998 (no idea from when, they never mention that bit) and then, er, stopped.
So once they start rising again (they must have Alice's looking glass to see that) they know how much now? Did someone maybe give them God's phone number? Has Stephen Hawking used his wheelchair as an antenna and channeled the climate fairy? Please. They didn't know what our summer would be like this year and they're wittering on the world is ending as they need more taxes!

Get it?

Anyway, hopefully they've shot themselves in the foot with this one, as it's so ridiculous even the hoverers may question this level of certainty when absolutely no actual facts support it. The mafia are not just from Italy, they operate just the same at all levels and the equivalent is behind this one. They spend a fortune advertising and bribing scientists knowing they'll get more back in contracts (new taxes). Actually I'd like to move so should start becoming a climate change counsellor, helping people overwhelmed by all the changes in the world caused by our CO2 emissions. Why not join them as I need the money as much as anyone else. They have their script and despite no data actually supporting the claims stick to it regardless, just like the Nazis did. CO2 is the Jew of the 21st century and the bedwetters (as named by Lord Monckton) are the Nazis chasing them to their demise. The holocaust is financial so far, and will become technological, by destroying industry to 18th century standards, when finally killing millions of people when the first nuclear leak happens, as it has to.

So eventually their policies can and probably will cause another holocaust, they can't predict tomorrow's weather but I can safely say if they go nuclear one reactor will leak and we all know what happens then. Only the mafia could manage this on such a scale.

Getting it all done

I've had another guided weekend, including my thoughts. I was at a loose end on Saturday night and did my monthly or so check for old signs posted online, and after well over an hour went to Surrey and found yet another one which turned out to be pretty easy to get to, and a very rare map type I have very few of. I was planning to go to the old subway ones I Streetviewed in Hounslow but did that today despite taking nearly as long due to major traffic. I'm now free and if no ideas tomorrow can finish my article and then print the rest to be made to a little book.

The red triangle may arrive this week and in which case should be fitted on Sunday. Another (the first) has popped up south of the Thames but 75 miles south so fuck all use to me. But gives hope as on a farm track and one of the few places they may be in Surrey if I keep looking. Not a single other plan this week, I've driven (or been driven) over 100 miles this weekend so have little need to do more, plus London has apparently given up its treasure sign wise already and am lucky Surrey still turns up more as it's not on Streetview and have to rely on local knowledge.

So I believe it's still being controlled, and the other projects are in wait mode, meaning I have (or others) set the wheels in motion and can now only forget the lot until the fruit grows. I've had loads of time to play online quizzes again now Streetview's almost done, and getting dark at 4pm, and even managed to win a few again. Otherwise it's a supermarket voucher visit, optician to try and get new lenses in my sunglasses, which needs some price shopping, and probably a trip to see if I can get a clock for my new car as it's very offputting. I have a few hours of videos to see as well when there's shit on TV in the evenings (most nights besides I'm a celebrity), and pretty happy to have a rest this week although will still be working once or twice at my late grandma's until the stuff has been removed.

The current ETA for the projects is in the few months ballpark (just thought I'd add a useless cliche) so will be doing the short term everyday stuff until anything else crops up, besides the triangle sign which is a week or two off. At least things have now become a bit more positive and have a list of ambitions which is gradually being addressed, hopefully bigger each time.

How it's done

After a busy week I've now got some peace and freedom. No actual material to fill it yet, but a good start. I've been watching lots of new satsang posted on Youtube and my mind now understands all matter is part of one whole, thoughts just vibrating on a different frequency from rocks. But if everything is one, then we as part of it are supposed to be influencing it with our thoughts, as they apparently create matter. Of course matter changes our thoughts, so why not the other way round?
It also means we are not confined by a body, but part of it all. Science now seems to confirm what they have always said.

People use practices of varying complexity to see this directly for themselves, with varying results. I stick to the easiest ones, the meditation has worked for minutes at times, while the active work I can apply all the time seems to have had no effect. My life has changed outwardly though, which makes sense if all is connected. I am finally being guided to each event and does seem to fit my own choices and ambitions more and more. That's never happened before. Once you know it's there and look for it it can be seen in many events. I'm sorry it can't speed the flow though but how many adepts are alive at one time, if any?
But it's improved. I may still be alone, no woman in my life and few friends around, but getting many other ambitions done one by one which really aren't the sort of thing I could cause by choice. I hope this means one by one the other will as well as I know the overall picture I'd like to see and will know when I've crossed that line.

The current use of the time has been getting chores done- shopping, still clearing my grandma's place now my friends have left it, going for walks and bike rides when dry, and a little work. All the big projects are on hold, while I either wait for deliveries, results or progress outside my control. Meanwhile I have to keep occupied, and will be taking another old subway sign over the weekend if nothing else. These are the little stepping stones that seem to get me across the gaps when nothing big is happening. Half the events are definitely started by me while others are 100% out of my hands. Maybe at last these are being influenced by my preferences if indeed part of it all.

No plans otherwise so just wait and see. A poll was just announced that 40% of people (British?) don't believe in global warming. OK, I think 20% to go now, we're getting there. Be scared of radiation (man made), overpopulation (man made) and real pollution such as sewage (man made) and let the climate do what it always has. This is the world's IQ test. Score under 100 and we all go down (not in water, but financially) and beat it and we beat the system. I've answered as many questions on it as people throw at me as I've taken the effort to find the answers and it's no different from a complex David Copperfield trick, using misdirection and distraction so some fools take their eyes off the ball. I am doing what the masked magician is and taking the sheet away so you can see what they're doing, not just here but every website I can. And right at the back there's Al Gore with one hand on his cock running the whole show.

Neither a borrower or a lender be

I like freedom, and when I sometimes put down certain political views it's because they restrict it for no reason except they enjoy doing so. Some sick individuals enjoy seeing animals in cages, all I can say is if they do then each should spend at least a week in one and then see if they do. The same goes for the rich politicians who like to make us poor. They can travel freely but when they make it so expensive only the most well off can do so. I know why they do it but will never approve of their attempts to increase the scope. The old economic policy of money equalling production has never applied to this lot, otherwise the banking system of leveraged borrowing and quantitative easing would be illegal. Ponzi schemes always were, as are pyramid schemes, but printing money to flood the economy never was, despite the total of production staying fixed. It always means the new money is worthless but because of the methods of accounting they use (very similar to the ones demonstrating global warming) people are fooled.

Now to me once this was pointed out it was never in doubt, yet when I try and do so, I either preach to the converted who also worked it out or am faced with abuse. Why do people want to be robbed and would rather believe the the rat in the kitchen is their fairy godmother? Human bloody nature. As Shakespeare's rose will always smell as sweet even if you call it Al Gore, so Al Gore will always be the devil's rheum even if people call him the saviour.

One by one people familiar with David Icke but critical are beginning to realise he knew what he was saying. Again, like the biblical sheep and goats (I never understood the meaning by the way) we are divided in two camps. The believers and the understanders. Belief means trust and faith, understanding means knowledge. I know man burning fuel and farming can't make the climate change. I know restricting people's freedom is bullying. I know lending people money they can never repay and then getting the taxpayers to foot the bill is theft. Most people vote for the policies that allowed this to happen and then whinge when it did. Including EU membership. It's like leaving the car door unlocked and then moaning when it's been stripped the next morning. The best I can hope for is one person who was sucked in saying they've realised I was right but may wait a very long time. That's how they get away with it, people hate to be cheated and hate even more to be wrong, so they close their eyes and whistle dixie while their bank accounts shrivel up like autumn leaves. It's like trying to tell someone the answer on a TV quiz knowing they can never hear you. I really feel like giving up but as long as I have a voice I can only repeat, repeat, repeat. If not then everyone will assume we agree.

I wonder how when all the political fraud is so obvious to me why so few others get it? I can explain it instantly and easily and when junk mails offered me grand loans every day for years I wouldn't want or could afford it was clear every bugger in the country was as well. It never used to be like that, the people who needed loans (apart from housing I don't believe anyone does, but they felt they did) never got them. Then it changed. Or the law did. Banks were allowed to invest and speculate and previous barriers to bad debt creation were removed. This is now the result. Just like 'Life insurance' is actually death insurance, so the credit crunch is actually the debt crunch. Earn not enough, borrow what they offer you and then (adding vast amounts of interest) realise you can't pay. Multiply that by millions of similar idiots and the sensible guys have to pay as it's our safe money the government can take from us in taxes.

So as always the bright subsidise the dim, locally and worldwide. This is a form of socialism and another reason I could never endorse a single left wing party as long as I live. It's organised envy, puritanism and control and I like my freedom and to earn my money honestly and be allowed to keep it. People will never again believe it's necessary to save until they have luxuries like decent cars and holidays, but always believe the sensible owe them a living and basically steal our money by taking out loans they know they can never repay while the banks and governments who subsidise them take our money to fill the gaps. If a revolution was ever needed now is the time, before we are all equally poor (besides the bankers).

Voting our lives away

It's been some time since I opened the box and had nothing to say. The activity was wearing me out and just hope I can find as many easy things to do when it's over this week. Assuming it is. Meanwhile our government has managed to become the totalitarian collection of mafiosi I said Labour were as soon as I was old enough to tell the difference.
They made it in the end. Fuel rationing. Under the latest plans to rob the poor (as they will be hurt the most) each person will be given an annual energy allowance and once it's used will be taxed an all the remainder used. It's possible it may be beaten by the next election but unlikely.

People either know this already or don't want to. How much they'll have to be robbed before they realise the concept of global warming was developed solely for this purpose is the equivalent of a negative IQ test. The longer people fall for it the lower their IQs are. And that seems bloody low to me as I suspected for a long time. I want them to show me I'm wrong yet each time this and last month more green taxes were announced no one besides me and Petrie Hosken on LBC seemed to care. Clive Bull there wondered what difference it made why they taxed us as they've got to do it anyway, the simple answer is that you can't have a unicorn tax if there aren't any unicorns. If they do need to clear us out then just say so and admit they've fucked up the economy no better than pre-Nazi Germany and Zimbabwe today. I saw the debt crisis coming, my cat did, and even my flaky ex probably did. But Gordon Brown, the most powerful man (officially at least) in the country was too fucking thick to realise? Of course he knew, but with hands in the till how could he stop it?

So I see the political system of democracy crumble in front of me, and without bloggers and other independent individuals reminding as many people as possible our governments are as bent as a nine bob note, maybe more people will vote for the other lot in the next election. The ones with principles who won't imitate every other bugger like the main three do. Just don't vote Green obviously. These extremists are against freedom and everything we were supposed to have won the war for. Now the EU is taking over, just like Germany tried to twice before but this time with the Lisbon Treaty signed have now succeeded. And the biggest green taxes come from that very EU, so the only way to stop them is choose a politician who wants to leave it. Enough said.

Getting it done

That was a busy week- My friends from America are here and seen them nearly every day before they return for 3 more years minimum. I went back to take a photo of the sign I found last week behind locked gates, and ordered the triangle to go on top which will be replaced sooner or later now.
So most of my jobs are out of the way for now, and an arson attack on our junction box meant north London had no cable access for over 2 days after my last entry, and had two whole fucking email replies when it returned yesterday afternoon. I'd run out of things to do at home by Friday and really missed whatever the internet could do. Living alone means there's literally nothing else to do besides housework, TV and the internet, and besides the 5 terrestrial channels the rest were off as well.

Things do seem to be fitting better now, more actual finishes although others are only half done still. Besides probably seeing my friends one last time Tuesday I am devoid of all plans besides one booking on Friday. I'll have to tidy my grandma's after they go back and do all the washing but that was the rule they were allowed to stay at all by my mum. I believe something will still happen, the big one/s whatever they are. I joined the Facebook page of a lovely woman in my old TV programme although she's a few years older than me and probably knocking 60 and married. She hasn't replied to my comments though but may rarely visit. Maybe a woman will be next, I know exactly what I both want and need, and as long as she tolerates my massive limitations will be perfectly OK. I can't imagine or engineer where they'll finally come from whatever my mother thinks, but everything else happens randomly sooner or later and so does that.

I can't remember if anything else is on its way, clearly not the various people expected to reply when the internet came back, but if nothing else the rest will do me good this week. It gets too dark for photos by 4 even if I had any to take now, and am busy on my postal course to be followed by finishing one article and starting a second. Even the news is opening up a little now, with the BBC reporting global warming disbelievers and Friends of the Earth realising carbon trading is also a con. If you trade in something that can't be bought and sold the actual transactions are void. There is nothing being bought or sold, like a Ponzi scheme or Enron. It's just another name for fraud. We give and they take, and what do we get in return, literally fresh air, including the carbon that's been traded. Hold on, does that sound like bollocks? Because of course it is. Do you really need an IQ of 169 to realise that, if so we are in dire straits.
That's the final job, I must find someone to take my IQ, two more calls to make tomorrow. One at a time.

Progress and agoraphobia

"Why why should we care Joe, why should we despair Joe? We'll win out, yes we'll win out, yes we'll win out in the end". Now some people in the UK will remember this just as I do, but heard it for the first time in about 30 years after I finally got hold of the series of Look and Read called Joe and the Sheep Rustlers first shown in 1973 when I began catching the odd episode when off school, but never seen them all. So now I've managed to hear it again thanks to the internet, although it was all shown at once a couple of years ago I checked very soon after and too late. Patience and persistence there.

I have been pretty busy, work has snowballed as it usually does for no apparent reason, my friends from America are here this week after a 4 year gap and probably about the same next time, if there is one. Two more old signs over the weekend found posted on Flickr so on quite a roll. And according to a British court today global warming is officially a religion, as someone won their case on religious/philosophical discrimination grounds, as they were a green warmist, or 'bedwetter' as Lord Monckton and now I call them. A few leaders, many minions and millions of unknowing victims. The scam of the millenium.
So my feeling last week things would happen seems not failed but gradual, building up since about the weekend and continuing to each day. If I picked that up that is a new level of progress and with evidence comes faith, not the imaginary religious type but the knowing you get from experience.

The new counter is clocking about 10 a day, which means it's the same as when the other vanished and a good base to start on. I'm reading more now it's dark early and learning how incredibly similar agoraphobia is and people's reactions to not being able to do most of the things they once could. It's a new arrival to us all, it comes after having little or no problem with anything, you have one or two bad experiences and it arrives in full. Then it's simply a matter of how big your circle is each day, month or year. Even those who do what I may never do again are still often terrified while they do and wears them out for days after. I say don't bother as once you've done these things already and often no longer want or need to then most are expendable. It's really a free world when it comes to taking orders and if it's your job then you have to get one that's safe. One woman who doesn't care I can't go to the theatre, restaurants and most of the other places they usually love going and I've won. I can't imagine many men who'd turn down a woman that didn't like going out, they'd probably propose to them despite any nasal or other prominent wart. So why do women love activity so much?

Many women of all ages moan their partners hardly ever take them out, I went to discos to meet girls, girls tended to go even when you'd pulled as they liked them. And so it continued. Once a man has a woman he's often happy just to sit around the house like the cat while she's around. Go out when so comfortable and the TV on- why? The selection of countries I've seen has been interesting, but 200 miles or so of Belgium at 150mph basically tells you what you always heard, it's a flat green plain with small bunches of grotty old houses. Seeing famous places like Amsterdam, Paris, Copenhagen etc are interesting but no need to make a habit of it. America is pretty uniform for 1000 miles, I must have driven that much on the bus there and barely noticed a change. Skyscrapers surrounded by henhouses surrounded by grass or trees. Each town or city except DC was a clone of the last, although Cleveland was a lot nicer and I've seen some of the best small towns ever in the northern states and Canada on TV, but I didn't see much personally. Morocco was just like the films but again no need to make a habit of it and I ate on board ship which was free of germs. They warned everyone to avoid eating locally and those who ignored it suffered the consequences. Beaches and posh hotels can be nice but only so much sea and sand in a lifetime and the hotels all relied on the other people as deadly dull when they weren't there.

So maybe agoraphobics are an evolutionary level, ie being content where they are. I only know one who wants to go to places they can't, I think most are more like me and are happy unless pushed to beyond their personal boundaries. People can learn a lot from us as being content is one of the highest levels, as above happiness which is transitory. I'm rarely happy nowadays for obvious reasons for regular readers. But I am content when I've been out or seen someone and then can relax at home in front of a screen. I learned a lot from my cats and clearly have more in common with them than most people do.